Bath
February 12th, 2011, 05:32 PM
About a month ago we suddenly stopped my medication(abilify for bipolar, cogentin for anxiety) because my mom said she couldn't afford it. I went crazy because we didn't slowly stop it, she just took it away all together. In this past month I've been feeling very suicidal more than usual and came close to cutting myself again, I've been working very hard not to. My mood swings have been out of control and I've been crying a lot more. I've been feeling like absolute shit, but while I was on the meds it seemed to help a little bit. I mean, it wasn't a cure-all but it made me feel a little better. I wasn't suicidal and my mood swings calmed down a great amount, though I had my moments.
My mom later revealed that she stopped the meds because she believes I don't need it, that the doctors just want more money.
But I think it was helping a lot.
I sat her down and talked about it, and she's still in denial. I asked her if I could continue my therapy then (so I could talk to my therapist about what's going on with it) but she refuses that too, says I'm doing better, and she said that I'm probably lying to her about it making me feel better because it's all in my head or I'm addicted to the medication or some stupid shit.
What should I do? :/
My mom later revealed that she stopped the meds because she believes I don't need it, that the doctors just want more money.
But I think it was helping a lot.
I sat her down and talked about it, and she's still in denial. I asked her if I could continue my therapy then (so I could talk to my therapist about what's going on with it) but she refuses that too, says I'm doing better, and she said that I'm probably lying to her about it making me feel better because it's all in my head or I'm addicted to the medication or some stupid shit.
What should I do? :/