Flippy
February 12th, 2011, 12:49 AM
I'll just keep myself from killing more time by skipping all the "Hello VT[...]" and everything in-between that, 'not in the mood.
Here comes your generic "I'm a boy who likes this girl who doesn't pay attention to me [...]" so, if most of you are tired of this topic you might want to leave now, don't want to bore you.
So guys, Valentine's coming, I hope most of you have a purpose for that day.
Not me, here's the thing.
Well, I've already made a thread about this girl and how confusing everything around me and her is. Since April 2010 we had been chatting a lot about pretty much everything, she told me the problems that chased her and I did my best to try at least and tell her some encouraging words and suggestions; I was at another school at the time, I was in the same as her but switched because I wanted something new, things didn't work out as planned though and I'm back there.
Once I went back to the old school I met her, sat near her and we talked about everything, once again. We were really playful and open to each other to the extent that she started making signs noticeable.
We stopped talking to each other for some time, for no discernable reason... though we still talked when we had the chance to, the school was starting to notice we were too focused on each other and decided to separate us in every possible way just so we could keep "focus" on the class, that wasn't the main problem, it would never be... but from this everyone started bothering her with childish "you like him" and that started to creep her out and annoyed her to extreme, she sometimes cried because she couldn't cope with it, don't ask why, she had a lot of pressure at home and outside of it (she's in an orchesta, things tend to get a bit tough there).
As time goes on she starts acting a lot different... she hates me right now, today. I sometimes got mad with her for some stuff, which I shouldn't had, I reckon that, it wasn't the smartest thing to do. But she kept provoking me as if she were trying to make me disappear on purpose, I'd respond with some hurtful things to her, but not to the degree of calling her a "whore" or swearing at her or wishing bad on said person's family, but by saying "I hate 'x' guy, regardless of what you say" (she talked about someone in my face, I was and am jealous that 'someone' has her attention now, and the fool won't just notice and tell her. She's a wonderful person most of the times, he should notice)
Today, as much as I had helped her not too long ago, and still am with whatever I can (because she doesn't talk to me that much anymore) she's not noticing that.
For example, a few hours ago I checked Facebook, I don't usually do this a lot nor stay there for a long time. And she sent pretty much everyone a "Valentine Message" thing that you send to the ones you love the most, even the guys that just make sexual references of and "touch" her in front of her face(not that far) got some. As for me, I didn't get any, I'm like OK, whatever. But erm, throughout these days there's more and more messages she keeps sending and they keep appearing in my front page.
This makes me feel like a fool. I did all of that for nothing at the end.
So, do you think it can still be fixed? I don't see anyway out, honestly.
Here comes your generic "I'm a boy who likes this girl who doesn't pay attention to me [...]" so, if most of you are tired of this topic you might want to leave now, don't want to bore you.
So guys, Valentine's coming, I hope most of you have a purpose for that day.
Not me, here's the thing.
Well, I've already made a thread about this girl and how confusing everything around me and her is. Since April 2010 we had been chatting a lot about pretty much everything, she told me the problems that chased her and I did my best to try at least and tell her some encouraging words and suggestions; I was at another school at the time, I was in the same as her but switched because I wanted something new, things didn't work out as planned though and I'm back there.
Once I went back to the old school I met her, sat near her and we talked about everything, once again. We were really playful and open to each other to the extent that she started making signs noticeable.
We stopped talking to each other for some time, for no discernable reason... though we still talked when we had the chance to, the school was starting to notice we were too focused on each other and decided to separate us in every possible way just so we could keep "focus" on the class, that wasn't the main problem, it would never be... but from this everyone started bothering her with childish "you like him" and that started to creep her out and annoyed her to extreme, she sometimes cried because she couldn't cope with it, don't ask why, she had a lot of pressure at home and outside of it (she's in an orchesta, things tend to get a bit tough there).
As time goes on she starts acting a lot different... she hates me right now, today. I sometimes got mad with her for some stuff, which I shouldn't had, I reckon that, it wasn't the smartest thing to do. But she kept provoking me as if she were trying to make me disappear on purpose, I'd respond with some hurtful things to her, but not to the degree of calling her a "whore" or swearing at her or wishing bad on said person's family, but by saying "I hate 'x' guy, regardless of what you say" (she talked about someone in my face, I was and am jealous that 'someone' has her attention now, and the fool won't just notice and tell her. She's a wonderful person most of the times, he should notice)
Today, as much as I had helped her not too long ago, and still am with whatever I can (because she doesn't talk to me that much anymore) she's not noticing that.
For example, a few hours ago I checked Facebook, I don't usually do this a lot nor stay there for a long time. And she sent pretty much everyone a "Valentine Message" thing that you send to the ones you love the most, even the guys that just make sexual references of and "touch" her in front of her face(not that far) got some. As for me, I didn't get any, I'm like OK, whatever. But erm, throughout these days there's more and more messages she keeps sending and they keep appearing in my front page.
This makes me feel like a fool. I did all of that for nothing at the end.
So, do you think it can still be fixed? I don't see anyway out, honestly.