Getting fucking siiiiiiickkk of this.............

[Daniel_]

So tomorrow, my school is having a dance. It's our winter formal, and just about all of my friends are going except for my best friend, which really is the only friend i have, you could say. Well, me and him were going to hang out this weekend, and now my other 'friends' were pestering him and pestering him, so now hes going. They didn't even bother asking if I wanted to go and hang out with them. Not once.

Then afterwards, they all planned on going to zap zone and hang out. Well apparently, the big ass van they're all taking is completely full, so now I get to spend my weekend alone. again. inside. bored. depressed.

I fucking hate my life, and I know I sound like a whiney bitch, but this is really, and I mean REALLY starting to bother me. I seriously need to find someone I can be close to, I just don't know what i'm gonna do.

[Bath]

I know what you mean, to other people stuff like this may sound whiny and stupid but it hurts, ya know? I promise you, you'll get over it. Maybe not now, since this sounds like its been an ongoing thing, but you'll make it through. Talk to your friend about how you feel, maybe. Nothing bad can come from it. Worse comes to worse, just take it a day at a time. There will be other times where you'll be happy, and other times where you'll be alone and depressed, that's what I've learned. It's just one weekend and tomorrow's a new day. Corny shit, I know, and annoying maybe, but I've gone through the same exact crap and I know how you feel.

[Jstr]

same here

[Daniel_]

Yeah, thats probably true but it's not something that will simply go away over night. Ever sense I was a little kid I would have these periods where I would get so depressed I couldn't say anything without crying, and it got to the point where I was actually getting pulled from school for it.

No one knows, I always make something up about it, I really don't want those peoples sympathy, it truly is the last thing I need, but still. I'm always told "Don't worry, everything will get better in the future", and I hate when people say that, because this is today, and today really does suck, and I know I can sit around day dreaming about how life will be later when I get out of this hell hole, but I just can't take that much more of this, sitting alone with nothing but music and television to keep me company. It's agonizing, it really is, and it needs to stop............ But I can't stop it, I try and try, but theres nothing I can do.