New here, full of issues!

[CutDeep]

Hey everyone, I'm Dylan. I've been looking around on here for a while and decided to join. I used to cut everyday for months about 5 months ago.. now I'm back to it.. Also, I'm worse then ever. Abusing perscription drugs and such. I was rejected by a girl i near love today. That hurt. We had so much in common. She just understood. But she wants nothing to do with me relationship wise. That's just the start of my troubles. I'll get into detail more later. Hope you guys can give me someone to talk with... Thanks, dylan.

Sorry to double post, but I've been to therapy dozens of times (none out of my choice) and even when I go with what they want me to do, talk and all that. It never helps. Just thought I'd add that in.

EDIT: Also, I'm on sertraline. Used to help...not no more.
Please do not double post, use the edit button- Fiction

[Kaya]

Hi, Dylan. I'm Kayla. I can talk with you. Just go on my profile and leave a visitor message :)

Welcome to VT.

[CutDeep]

Thanks Kayla! I left you a message!

[Love.Hate]

Well first off, Hey Dylan and welcome to VT Im Fran.
We are all here to help.. and everyone is in very simular situations. So nobody will judge you. Im sorry to hear about all of this, cutting is not good at all.
Im always here if you want advice or need to talk :)

[Fushigi]

hello!! welcome to vt... well ur at the right place u will find some comfort here glad u joined us here :D

[CutDeep]

Thanks everyone!! Who knows what it feels like to be in ''love'' with someone and they know it, but they just want to be friends and act like nothing ever happened... Thats the situation im in ATM.. Yesterday we talked (in person) for about an hour about us and how I feel about her.. and how she doesn't feel about me. I'm just so confused right now. I havn't had a girlfriend in like 4 months, and I have no one to talk to.. No real true friends I can talk to about cutting, and all of my other issues...

[Fushigi]

i know how u feel... but there is nothing wrong being a single... and again welcome to vt :D

[CutDeep]

Thanks dan.. I agree nothing wrong with being single, just the not having someone to let it out on part..

[ScarredEclipse]

Hey Dylan(: You can send me a message if you want and we can talk? I'm new here too (:

[ally.may33]

Hey there Dylan! First off, welcome to VT! You'd be surprised to find a lot of people that are going through the same things as you are.
Basically, cutting is bad. You should not punish yourself, for whatever reason. You're body does so much for you, keeping you alive, that we should appreciate and take care of it. I know when things are bad, cutting can make the pain go away-- give you a form of escape, but if you step back and look at the big picture, cutting doesn't help at all...in fact it will most likely make things worse. What are some things that you enjoy doing? Do you like reading poetry? Watching movies? Jogging? Find something that you like, and when you're feeling down, do whatever activity makes you feel better. This will help take your mind off of cutting and whatever negative events and emotions that are bringing you down. You can also try keeping a diary or talking with a close friend that you trust. It IS possible to stop cutting. There isn't specifically one way to stop that works for everyone-- each person who self harms, has their own unique way of keeping themselves from doing it. Find your way, and it will help you a lot. No one can make you stop, only yourself and your will power.
I know rejection hurts. Even though I'm a girl, I once asked this guy I liked out to the dance. He said he didn't want to go with me, and I was really upset! I know how you feel, but she's not the only female on this planet. I don't want to sound like a parent, but there are many many girls out there. And there is going to be more than one out there that is perfect for you. You may meet her now, or later. It's all a part of fate, as I say. In my opinion, if this girl rejected you, things just weren't meant to be. That means you have to hold your head up high and be open to a different girl who you can share the same feelings with! Is the girl still open to being friends with you?
Please, please, please feel free to message/email/Skype me, etc. I would love to help or just be your friend! I've had a dark history of cutting and self harm, so I completely understand what you're going through. Life is a puzzle and works in mysterious ways...just remain positive and hopeful and soon, things will turn around!

[Charleigh]

Welcome to VT.. PM me or VM me if you need anything hun.

I understand what it is like to feel rejected and pushed away by someone you love, and then turning to things that seem to make it less of a punch in the face. No matter what you take, your not going to forget it hun. You just have to deal with it, in a positive way.

Im here if you ever need anything, just leave me a message.
:hug:

[CutDeep]

Wow, what a wonderfull group of people here! Thanks everyone! Another thing happened today, my mom saw my cuts. I refused to go back to therapy (it makes things worse). She's going to have my sertraline up'd. I still wanna cut, but know i shouldn't!.. ughh.

[Mike321]

Hi Dylan, welcome along to VT!
I know how your feeling when it comes to being rejected, I have been rejected by alot of people in the past, even family members, I know its a hard thing to deal with.
I'm sorry to hear what your going through, and no matter how much it might seem like the right thing to do, cutting, in the long run, wont solve your problems.
There are alot of distraction techniques on here and on the internet that you can try rather than cutting.
I hope this helps, and once again welcome along.