Aceso
February 10th, 2011, 07:45 PM
Okay, so some of you are aware of my problems right now, if not then I will explain.
I have brittle diabetes mellitus, which is evidently the problem to my family.
Briefly, my condition is bad, it stresses my mom out. She recently had to change meds and that was like the turning point for her, but anyway.
When mom gets stressed out, it upsets dad, they argue, and my brother gets no attention. You can see where this is heading, a very screwed up family.
This morning my mom was having one of her mood swings, she yelled at dad and literally crashed the door in his face yelling ''get out of my sight.'' I had to leave and get to school but when I came back, my dad said we were taking her to a psychiatric center to see if there is anything they could do, and they had called for my grandma to come over for a while to help, but I'm not sure how long.
My poor mom was almost in tears when we arrived, and she was completely quiet. The expression on her face reminded me of a child. We left her at the ward, but when we came back she looked even worse. She had literally pulled out a clump of her hair and was rocking back and forth in her seat, completely silent, and twisting the top of a packet of polos. I have never, ever, in my life seen her look like she did today. Apparently they said they couldn't help here, but they made an appointment for her to see a doctor immediatly. We had to leave again to pick up my brother, and my dad explained that she would have to get the bus back because we only had the landrover there (we had driven her to the unit.)
I was immediatly worried about this, looking at the state of her, but we had no other option.
An hour or so later we have picked up my brother, got the house ready and my grandma arrives. She is sleeping in my room so I am going upstairs into the large spare room. The only thing is that I have nothing up here, and she could be here for possibly even a few months.
I'm so worried for my family. My mom, because she is the one most obviously in pain, but my dad because he has to cope with it all and my poor brother getting neglected. And its all my fault because of my stupid fucking medical issues! :mad:
I want to cut so badly right now :( Sorry for the rant, just needed to have a bit of release.
I have brittle diabetes mellitus, which is evidently the problem to my family.
Briefly, my condition is bad, it stresses my mom out. She recently had to change meds and that was like the turning point for her, but anyway.
When mom gets stressed out, it upsets dad, they argue, and my brother gets no attention. You can see where this is heading, a very screwed up family.
This morning my mom was having one of her mood swings, she yelled at dad and literally crashed the door in his face yelling ''get out of my sight.'' I had to leave and get to school but when I came back, my dad said we were taking her to a psychiatric center to see if there is anything they could do, and they had called for my grandma to come over for a while to help, but I'm not sure how long.
My poor mom was almost in tears when we arrived, and she was completely quiet. The expression on her face reminded me of a child. We left her at the ward, but when we came back she looked even worse. She had literally pulled out a clump of her hair and was rocking back and forth in her seat, completely silent, and twisting the top of a packet of polos. I have never, ever, in my life seen her look like she did today. Apparently they said they couldn't help here, but they made an appointment for her to see a doctor immediatly. We had to leave again to pick up my brother, and my dad explained that she would have to get the bus back because we only had the landrover there (we had driven her to the unit.)
I was immediatly worried about this, looking at the state of her, but we had no other option.
An hour or so later we have picked up my brother, got the house ready and my grandma arrives. She is sleeping in my room so I am going upstairs into the large spare room. The only thing is that I have nothing up here, and she could be here for possibly even a few months.
I'm so worried for my family. My mom, because she is the one most obviously in pain, but my dad because he has to cope with it all and my poor brother getting neglected. And its all my fault because of my stupid fucking medical issues! :mad:
I want to cut so badly right now :( Sorry for the rant, just needed to have a bit of release.