Cornered.

[Aceso]

I feel like I'm being driven into a corner. There are very few places I can cut or burn now.
Because I'm back to school now almost full time now, I'm doing PE, meaning I have to change in front of 30 or so girls. I can easily avoid them seeing cuts on my thighs and body, but not my legs or ankles because we wear shorts. So that cancels legs out.
Arms, for obvious reasons I cannot do. Because I inject into my arms for my diabetes I have to roll up my sleeves, and I am not allowed to wear any bracelets in school.
Then, there is my thighs. I never go swimming any more but my mom keeps suggesting that I go with my friends, and I'm running out of excuses, it's looking suspicious. She organised for me to go swimming with my best friend in a fortnight, that cancels out my arms and legs.
That leaves my body. Another injection sight is my belly, and I usually cut on my sides. I say I am resting that injection sight but I can only do that for so long.
That leaves literally no where to cut. I feel completely cornered and I have nowhere to go, and my urges are more persistent than ever. I wish I could just cut my arms or anywhere but I can't and it's driving me crazy. At the moment I'm doing the back of my hips, but I need to be able to see and treat my cuts properly. I need to cut, but I have nowhere to go. Please help.

[Njathind]

Hmmm, I know how you feel hun, its like you dont wanna cut here or there, but its always your favourite places :(

Maybe you should think about tryng to stop, I've read some fo your other posts and life sounds hard for you at the moment. Have you tried distraction techniques? It honestly sounds like stopping is the only answer :confused:

I'm not gonna tell you where else you could cut to hide it as thats against the rules. Please think long and hard about getting some help and trying to stop, I know its a hard step to take but you gotta be brave.

I'm here for you hun and I'm sure the rest of VT are right behind me, if you ever need someone to listen, I wanna help :hug:

[Aceso]

Hey Nat, thanks for replying on both my posts.
At the moment, It's my only coping resource. I have tried numerous coping strategies, but eventually it leads down to this...and if I don't, I get suicidal thoughts.
I looked at my veins tonight, and I was tempted to just cut them...but that is why I made this post, because I have nowhere to go, it's like I'm trapped...
I agree, if I could stop I would, but right now I don't know what I can do. :(

[Quahog]

Well, that doesn't mean give up. I know it's hard, but we are going to get you through this. I agree with Nat, you have to find a distraction/motivation for you to quit. I don't want you to lose to the blades. You don't have to.

I know the scars are hard to look at. Everyone who cuts knows its hard dealing with the scars.

Don't give up, we are going to help you.

[Mike321]

Like the others have said, you need to find some sort of distraction or something to motivate you to stop, I know its not easy, but there are lots of suggestions here on VT or on the internet.
You dont have to give up on this, I know what it feels like when you have 'run out' of places to cut without them being seen.
And dont you think that its a good thing that you made this post rather than cutting, you have got everyone on here to help and support you, you can get through this.
Dont let it win.

[Njathind]

I know how you feel, quitting seems impossible right now but it is possible.

Please dont think this way, and cutting your viens isnt gonna help either. Maybe its time to be brave and admit you need help, and go and get that help. I'm here for you every step of the way hun, thats if you want it :hug3: