Cutting is a better pain then my life...

[MyRedHeadWorld]

I've started to actully cut myself. It hurts Oviasly. I have Scars ALL OVER my arms. One HUGE ONE That when I did it, It was bleeding pretty bad O_O and over 10 bad ones ont the other arm. Ive now got the the point of my rists... I was scared before so I did it on my arms, I actully held the scissors (Yeah I used Scissors, they work pretty well!! >.<) Against my neck, and It felt good? Ive done it on my rists, but not very hard, It didnt leave a mark...I dunno how to stop and none of my friends understand. they either think Im stupied, which makes me feel like an idiot, or Im over reacting, when they dont know whats going on in my world, and in my head! Or they were gulible enough to belive a 'cat' did it ;D I just need advice!! :/

[Quahog]

I understand. Many people who cut are ashamed to hang out with others, and go out in public because of the scars and bruises. Don't think of yourself as an idiot, because you're not. We are going to get you through this.

Have you tried any distractions on yourself? Or do you write down your feelings? Draw? Do you do any exercise? All of those things can get you started on quitting. In addition to that, you can post in the non self harm calender.

http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=3861

You can always come here and talk to us if you still have problems, many people where in your same situation, are they are willing to help you.

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

Okay, first off, to hide your current scars, wear 3 quarter length sleeves and chunky bracelets.

Now, before you continue on cutting yourself i suggest finding a friend, even on here, who can always chat with you and support you to not do it. Ive been cutting for 2 years and i have felt guilty after each session. But i still do it, its an addiction, i keep falling but then i stop and then i fall and so on. DONT be discouraged if your friends dont understand, its either than they are to afraid to help you bcs they have problems of their own and cant handle yours or they think that your way of dealing with pain is ridiculous and dont realize they're hurting you, they may think that their opinion is all thats needed, if you let them know you really need their help and your worried about it then they might straighten up and give you seriously needed help.

Now im going to give you suggestions to do INSTEAD of cutting yourself, they dont work for me but they MIGHT work for you and if they DO, USE them; drawing pictures of bloody arms, writing angry words, holding an ice cube, rubbing an red-dye ice cube where you want to cut, listen to angry music, snap a rubber band on your wrist, watch a movie, email your pain+anger to a friend, stab a pillow with the scissors.

I hope at least one of those work. Noone who cuts over react, bcs your the one experiencing it. I mean if your THAT worried about it then you wouldnt have started in the first place, for me, i think others are over reacting when really im the one under reacting. If your troubled then you have to confide in a trusted friend, noone can get by in this crazy world alone and come out perfectly fine with nothing wrong with them mentally or physically. CHOOSE a friend you trust with even your scariest or most disturbing thoughts, TRUST TRUST me when i say that youll feel better afterwards. They may not be an expert on giving you advice, but if theyre response is sending the "i care about you i love you dont hurt yourself please" vibe, then hopefully they will makes you feel a little better with their support.

Sorry for all this, i just hope this helps, let me know if it does! And it it didnt then tell me why, i love giving advice, hopefully that doesnt sound mean. Good luck and confide in a friend!