I can do this!

[RAWWR]

Okay. So i'm gonna quit self harm.
Recently I fell pregnant, unfortunatley I later miscarried, I was only 7 weeks, but I loved my baby more than anything at all. I decided to choose a sex for the baby (female) and a name (Hayley)
Anyway, so today, I decided to stop self harming for her. Because I love her. The point in this thread I suppose is to tell you that I am quitting, and also to tell you how I plan on doing it, in the hope it might help some of you. It's basically the butterfly project, but instead of butterflys, I have written 'Hayley' all over my arms. I know It will stop me because not only will I never be able to cut her, It will also remind me every time I go to cut, why I am not going to do it.
I wrote a note to Hayley in the 'depression, loss and greif' boards, entitled 'to my darling baby girl' if anyone wants to read it <3

[FullyAlive]

I'm so happy that you've finally found the motivation you need to stop cutting but I'm really sad that it had to happen in such tragic circumstances. It's such a sweet, beautiful take on the butterfly project I really hope it works. If you do think you can do this for her, then that's really good news.
I wish you all the luck in the world! I really hope you're ok :)
xxxxxxxx :hug: xxxxxxxxxx

[RAWWR]

Thankyou for taking the time to comment :)
I know this is going to be hard, but I am determined, It started off because When I lost her I wanted to cut, but I told myself she wouldn't want me cutting over her, so I decided to use that to help me quit for good, I hope that she knows how much I love and care for her, and that I am doing this for her. <3

[FullyAlive]

I'm sure she does know, I bet she's watching you right now, she will be so sad that she missed out on life with you, but she will love you so so very much and be sending you her strength to help you all the way xxxxxxx

[RAWWR]

Stop making me cry woman! :')
Thankyou. I hope she does know. At least I know she is safely with the angels <3

[Love.Hate]

Im so happy you have found something to motivate you to stop.
You know im here..*passes box of tissues*
Hayley is lucky to have a mum like you.

Keep strong :)

[Njathind]

I'm so happy and pleased for you. Although I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I think your really brave and strong to be able to do this, and I admire you so so much. Your post about your little girl is really sweet. I'm really please for you hun, your an inspiration to us all. :hug:

[RAWWR]

Thankyou everyone, it means a lot, to me, and to Hayley.
*Takes tissues* I seem to be getting through rather a lot of those.
I flushed my blades down the toilet.

[FullyAlive]

Sorry for making you cry :(
Your right she is safe with the angels look at it this way, at least you know your baby is safe she's never going to have to live on this earth which you probably know can be hard :/ instead she will be right up there in heaven, looking after you as you missed out on the chance to look after her. And remember she will remain perfect, the world won't get a chance to ruin her. Xxxx

Well done for getting rid of the blades :)

[RAWWR]

:) it's ok. The slightest little thing makes me cry latley.
Thankyou...

[Mike321]

I'm really sorry to hear what happened to your baby.
Buts its really good to hear that you want to quit and are determined to do it, and well done on getting rid of your blades too, thats a really brave thing to do.
I'm really proud of you and know that you will be able to do it

[Quahog]

I'm so proud of you. I'm sorry for your miscarriage. I wish you good luck in your journey to quit, and whenever you feel upset, or have trouble, don't be afraid to come here and explain it to us. So proud of you for not giving into the blades. Good luck. :)

[RAWWR]

Thankyou guys. It's getting hard now, I really wanna cut. But I can't......I have to stay strong for her.

[Charleigh]

Hun we all know you can do it, you are a strong girl. I love you lots, im here for you.
:hug:

[RAWWR]

Thankyou Charlie :) I'm still hanging in there...

[gabzas331]

I really hope you can break the habit. These things are hard as we all know and I hope you can do it for hayley. My sincerest condolences go to you for your loss.


-G

[TravM]

Okay. So i'm gonna quit self harm.
Recently I fell pregnant, unfortunatley I later miscarried, I was only 7 weeks, but I loved my baby more than anything at all. I decided to choose a sex for the baby (female) and a name (Hayley)
Anyway, so today, I decided to stop self harming for her. Because I love her. The point in this thread I suppose is to tell you that I am quitting, and also to tell you how I plan on doing it, in the hope it might help some of you. It's basically the butterfly project, but instead of butterflys, I have written 'Hayley' all over my arms. I know It will stop me because not only will I never be able to cut her, It will also remind me every time I go to cut, why I am not going to do it.
I wrote a note to Hayley in the 'depression, loss and greif' boards, entitled 'to my darling baby girl' if anyone wants to read it <3

I'm glad that you have the strong-willed personality to attempt to stop harming yourself. It's probably hard to get to that point, can't really say I'd know, but it's definitely a step-by-step process I'd say. As you can see from the above posts, you definitely have support behind you to move forward with your life and leave cutting in the past. :)