I think I need serious help..

[megamikey59]

Ok. I know what serious depression feels like. Ok well, I'm not depressed as I was about 1-2 years ago. I'm still really depressed but I don't really cut myself alot now nor do I cry myself to sleep that easily. I cry myself to sleep like once or twice a month. Ok well, here's my question. Is it normal for somebody like me to want to be seriously depressed again? Is it normal to want to be the most depressed person in the whole world? Cause that's just what I'm wishing and hoping for. I wanna be depressed, like seriously depressed.

[schrei jess]

No that isnt normal! Wishing for that is awful.

Id gladly give you my hell of a life filled with serious clinical depression if I could just feel normal again. That is the dumbest thing to wish for ever...like seriously, most people want money or a puppy - and you want severe depression?!

[terith]

I say the same thing as Jessi says man,why would u want to be depressed??? Ill give u mine

[megamikey59]

idk.. it's a wierd feeling.. i miss being seriously depressed.. i just want it so badly now.. my counselor says that the reason why i love being seriously depressed is because i can actually feel something other than hatred.. wil that be a reason?

[thesphinx]

idk.. it's a wierd feeling.. i miss being seriously depressed.. i just want it so badly now.. my counselor says that the reason why i love being seriously depressed is because i can actually feel something other than hatred.. wil that be a reason?

i kind of know how you feel, like i was horribly depressed a couple months ago and it got a bit better, im still depressed but it feels worse to me to be closer to being better but not there, its weird... like i would rather be severly depressed or normal no inbetween.... i know thats not gonna happen but its a weird feelin.....

[schrei jess]

Well, that may be right (what your counselor says) but in my opinion - You are so fucking stupid if you really want to be depressed badly. It has ruined my life, driven me to cutting, I have no close relationships now, dating is out of the question, I hate life and myself.

If that's what you want...then whatever, dude you're crazy. Wanting to be depressed is like purposely walking off a cliff...stupid.

[thesphinx]

Well, that may be right (what your counselor says) but in my opinion - You are so fucking stupid if you really want to be depressed badly. It has ruined my life, driven me to cutting, I have no close relationships now, dating is out of the question, I hate life and myself.

If that's what you want...then whatever, dude you're crazy. Wanting to be depressed is like purposely walking off a cliff...stupid.

he can help that he feels that way, and your not in his shoes so dont critizise him obviously he's going through a tough time, i feel the same way sometimes to even though i really dont want to be that deppresed i cant help that i feel that way sometimes either.
as the saying goes: "if you dont have anything nice to say, dont say it at all.

[schrei jess]

Look, all Im saying is - if you want severe depression, something IS wrong with you. You might not be able to help that, but maybe you need to go figure out what is up - because wanting that, it like asking for cancer.

Megamikey, Im not trying to be mean at all, I just cant even being to understand why you want this, I want so bad to get rid of it, and hearing someone else that wants it is insane.

[megamikey59]

I don't know why I want it. I just do. It makes me feel much better and life's better when I'm really depressed. I don't talk at all. I cut myself so I don't get any friends. I'm way too shy to ask girls out, boys as well. Life just seems better that way for me. Nobody would make fun of me since I would be alone. I don't like being around people. I don't like people. I don't like this world. I don't like being happy. I don't like going to parties. I don't like going to dances. I just don't like mostly everything. I like death, depression, girls, boys, razors, and the computer. That's basically all I like, oh and music. I just wish I was more abused so I could be more depressed. -.-
Oh yea, you weren't being mean. I've seen way worse. You were nothing basically. Everybody's mean to me so I got used to it so basically you weren't mean to me at all.

[JoshDude]

Being depressed is a bad feeling, so i can't understand why you would want to be seriously depressed. I know what being depressed is all about, because for a long time i have been depressed. I Havent tried cutting but it has always been a thought. If i were you, i would be trying to recover from depression rather than think about becoming more depressed.

[megamikey59]

Depression isn't a bad feeling. I like it. It makes me wanna hurt myself and then I get happy, well kinda.

[terith]

No that isnt normal! Wishing for that is awful.

Id gladly give you my hell of a life filled with serious clinical depression if I could just feel normal again. That is the dumbest thing to wish for ever...like seriously, most people want money or a puppy - and you want severe depression?!

Perfect again :)

And why would you want to be feeling like crap alll the time???

[megamikey59]

I just like the feeling. It's good. Can somebody stop posting here. Other people need help with depression.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

i sort of know what your talking about,
i used to feel the most suicidal when i was happy, if that makes sense.

[terith]

a lil bit lol