I finally forgive myself

[Learninghowtolove]

This is really hard for me to talk about but I really needed to let out some of my depression. Its really hard for me to face what happened but I think I am ready.

About 5 years ago I was a real brat. I wanted this and that, and if I didn't get it I had mental breakdowns. I know am medicating because of this problem, but it came at a price..

One night I had one of my meltdowns and I basically forced my father to go into town to pick up food from a local restaurant i love. He didn't want to go because of the fog that night, but I forced him anyways. Long story short he was hit by a train passing by near our house.

I have never been able to forgive myself for what happened. But I have created a video on youtube that I thought would help relieve some of the pain. here is the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Viic7Xef6O4

i hope all of you can appreciate how hard it is for me to get through this

[restricted NA]

Thats good you forgave yourself, but im only saying it was not you fault in the first place, it was the stupid train. Your apology is beautiful, and it really made my day.
Liked the video too :)

[Quahog]

Well, don't put yourself down too hard. Your dad was just trying to get you something to eat, and neither he, nor you knew that train was going to come. Happy that you forgave yourself, but just keep in mind you had no control of that train.

[Fiction]

We all have things we did in our past that we regret, especially when we are young.

When we are younger we tend not to see the counsequences that our actions bring. I'm sure there are many other people that would have done the exact same thing as you, but you where just unlucky.

Forgiving yourself is good :)