I tried. Honest I did.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I really did try not to cut from my last post.... But, everything's fucked up.

I can't handle it. Not anymore. All I do is hurt people. All I do is get in the way.

I... cant.

The cuts aren't deep enough anymore. I don't... can't feel them/it anymore.


I truly do cry crimson tears.

Woke up this morning crying. I feel sick. Wanted to stay in bed all day. Had something to eat.... couldn't taste it.

"Every lie straight to my face"
"I trusted you, broke me down and you screwed me over"


And.... I'm alone... I really don't want to be. I don't want to do anything stupidly stupid.

[Lost n not yet found]

I no its difficult but everybody has a fighter in there somewhere even if at the moment its buried deep. Please be careful hun, it will get better in time you just need 2 take baby steps n take things slowly it will get better i promise

[Quahog]

It's going to be fine. If you need someone to talk to, this is the place. We all been through what you're going through, and we are going to get you through this. You are not alone, there are many other people who went through that. Your going to say no to the blades, your going to turn yourself away from the cuts.

I wouldn't want you to do something to hurt yourself, and I know you don't. Abi was right, you just need to take small steps to get through this, and a support system. You are always welcome to come here and talk.

[Love.Hate]

Its going to be okay,
Its probably too late for me to have stopped you from doing anything now..
But i need to say that the way you feel isnt right, nobody should feel like that.
If you need to talk dont hesitate, im always here.
And i think you need to talk to someone about how you feel, they could help?
Try talking it out, using distracations, Or make a note everyday.. of how you feel. I know it doesn't sound like it can help.. but i sometimes sit and compare mine.. and set myself a target, to feel like i did on such a day etc..
Nothing is ever garenteed to work. But give things a try.
And throw anything you could use away..

Always here :)

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I no its difficult but everybody has a fighter in there somewhere even if at the moment its buried deep. Please be careful hun, it will get better in time you just need 2 take baby steps n take things slowly it will get better i promise

I'm always careful... Time... 'time' is too long, i want everything to be better now.. but im not strong enough to do anything about it.

It's going to be fine. If you need someone to talk to, this is the place. We all been through what you're going through, and we are going to get you through this. You are not alone, there are many other people who went through that. Your going to say no to the blades, your going to turn yourself away from the cuts.

I wouldn't want you to do something to hurt yourself, and I know you don't. Abi was right, you just need to take small steps to get through this, and a support system. You are always welcome to come here and talk.

Its really hard to say no though :/ I know I dont but....soemtimes its too hard.. the only thing that stopped me last time going further/carrying on is i din't want my friend to be REALLY mad at me... which i suppose is a good thing but..

Its going to be okay,
Its probably too late for me to have stopped you from doing anything now..
But i need to say that the way you feel isnt right, nobody should feel like that.
If you need to talk dont hesitate, im always here.
And i think you need to talk to someone about how you feel, they could help?
Try talking it out, using distracations, Or make a note everyday.. of how you feel. I know it doesn't sound like it can help.. but i sometimes sit and compare mine.. and set myself a target, to feel like i did on such a day etc..
Nothing is ever garenteed to work. But give things a try.
And throw anything you could use away..

Always here :)

how can you say that?
yeah, it is kinda too late...
i know nobody should feel like this... well everyone but me...
thank you
i do talk to someone.. my bestfriend, but i dont want to keep unloading my shit onto her, she has her own life, her own problems to deal with
i usually write in my diary... which sometimes helps... i dont bother setting targets for myself... never can stick to them...
thank you (again) :)

[Charleigh]

You havent fucked up, at least you tried.

You only fuck up if you didnt try, and even if you dont try and fuck up, you can always try again and be strong. I understand what it is like, but you havent failed or fucked up, you tried and at least you did! Im proud that you tried, but next time try and double the length of time you didnt do it for and see if you can go without doing it.

Say strong hun. Im here if you ever need to talk.
:hug: