How NOT to get help.

[Fiction]

The last 24 hours has been pretty eventful for me, and Idk I want to tell you all what happened and hopefully... people can learn from my mistakes.

At 2am this morning, I took a minor overdose.
At 3am this morning, I took a minor overdose.

I panicked. I told my mum. I was taken to casualty and ended up sitting around in casualty for hours until they could take my blood, to see the levels of the drugs in my blood. It took them hours to get them.

Meanwhile I was moved to a ward, where my mum started questioning, accusing. I couldn't take it so I ran out the ward. Out the hospital. I've never had so little regard for whether i lived or died at that moment. I was running in front of cars. Running along crying, hitting my head with my hand and with one of those tap things in my hand. I must have looked like a lunatic but really I didn't give a shit. My dad kept trying to contact me and I ignored. The hospital called the police to bring me back. I was deemed a "danger to myself".

I then saw a councillor who I bulshitted into thinking everything was good now. Everything is soooo much better and I will never do it again. Yeah now i'm in councilling.

So yeah. Rant I suppose.

[georgiamay]

:heart:

It was brave of you to post. We're all here for you kathy, all the time.
You're always so supportive of everyone else.
I hope the councilling goes well.

xxx
:hug3:

[Charleigh]

Hun, thats terrible.

I dont know how it feels, because I have never been in that situation, but from what it seems like, seems pretty horrbile to me. As for the councellour, bullshitting to them about everything is ok, maybe this could be your chance to get some help and figure yourself out, maybe even a chance to stop cutting hun? As for running out the hospital, in front of cars and stuff, your a very very lucky girl. Hun, if something is bothering you that made you take the OD, please try and talk to somebody (:

Im here if you ever need to talk hun,
and always will be. Stay strong (:
:hug:

[Fiction]

I don't know what caused me to take it. Just wish I fucking managed.

[Love.Hate]

Hun.. :(
I sorry this happened to you, and i cant imagine what it would be like to go through all of that. Im so glad you told your mum, and maybe now your in counselling its a good thing? You can finally get help, and they know what there on about.
Your beautiful, and you are too good to loose.
Your worth so much more than this and i really wish you could see that. Please accept the help, you deserve better.
Nobody should feel like that.
Im ALWAYS here, and we all love you so much xxx

[Fiction]

Thanks Fran. And everyone else. Love you all too. Actually think if it wasn't for you guys I would be dead.

[FullyAlive]

Im so happy for you, you're getting help now, obviously the way you're getting it isn't great and I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. I don't know you very well but from what I've seen you seem like a genuinely nice person, you've helped a lot of people and you don't deserve to have gone through any of this at all but on a positive note maybe now it's your turn to get helped. I hope everything works out :hug: xxxxxx

[Syvelocin]

Aww hun :(
:hug:

Well you had quite the exciting night then :P
I'm more than relieved that you're okay Kathy. I don't know what I'd do if you weren't :/

[Fiction]

Thanks.

[Mike321]

I'm really sorry to hear what happen Kathy.
It must have been an aweful thing to go through, but I guess its a good thing that your getting help now.
Your a really valuable member of VT and help out so many people, I hope the counciling goes well, and you have mine and eveyone on heres' support.
Glad that your didnt come to too mcuh harm, good luck with everything :)

[Fiction]

Just kind of feel shit now. Like i really am crazy.

[Quahog]

Katie, I really hope this goes well for you. I would just hate for something horrible to happen to you. Nobody here wants that.

[Fiction]

Thanks to everyone that's replied.

[UnknownError]

I'm so glad your okay, if it had been more than a minor overdose or a car had hit you, who knows what would of happened.
Good luck in counselling, we're all here if you need anything. :hug3:

[RAWWR]

I'm so sorry this happend to you, sometimes it all just gets too much, and we do things we wouldn't normally do. You're not crazy, or at least, not any more than I am, I did this 7 times in 2 months last year, so I definatley know how it feels, but hopefully you will now get the support you need. You just need to let them help you.

[HeroesAndCons]

Good thing ur getting help tho
:hug:

If u need to vent you know what to do :)