I don't belong here

[Fiction]

I don't belong here. In my life. In my body. I'm not me. I'm a different person. This is all wrong. I'm the cutter who fucks up everything. That's not Kathy. It's not who she's meant to be. It's not how she was when she was younger. This is not me. Kathy liked her parents and got on with them and did well at school. I'm not Kathy.

I'm going crazy. I'm not me. I need to get the fuck out of here. I know this sounds so messed up and crazy. But it's all I can think of.

[ackmedsgirl666]

mhmm
sounds like u have alot on your plate
unfortunately i cannot offer advice unless i know what is wrong
so what exactly is setting you off and you do sound very unhappy
you sound like u hate your life so much and that you wanna start all over..
is that right?

[Fiction]

I want to go back to when I was me. I don't even know what's wrong. I've hidden stuff and locked it away for years. And it's all here now. I can't stop my head fucking thinking. It just always thinks. Every possible way to kill myself. I can't stop it. But i don't have the guts to do what I need to stop it. This isn't me.

[Quahog]

You are kathy. You always were, and you always will be. You are you. Be proud of yourself. Your the same kathy as you always been. Kathy doesn't want to kill herself, kathy loves life.

[Nevermore]

I know how you feel girlie. I find myself loathing my parents, and self harming and I ask myself where has this all come from? This isn't who I used to be. Kathy this is you. The things in our lives affect and change us to who we are today. There are some good thigns and some well, not so great things. You will love your parents again once you move out. I have heard this countless of times, from my peers older siblings. When your with a person 24/7 it's bound to get messy. Everything happens for a reason, everything has a purpose; it's something my grandmother told me a few months back. If you didn't self harm, or gone through the things you went through, do you honestly think you would've found VT? You probably wouldn't have, nor would you have been able to help the people you did through your personal expereience. This is you, things will get better. I promise. With the self harm, I'm here for you Kathy, anytime you want to talk, I"m here for you. (huggs)

[Love.Hate]

You are still Kathy, Yes you have changed as you have grown up.
But everyone grows up and i know how it feels to want to go back,
But you need to look ahead.. to the future. What can you change about yourself to bring a little bit of "old Kathy" back?

You do belong here. Dont ever think you dont.

[Fiction]

I've changed even more after the last few days.

[RAWWR]

So make a new Kathy? Forget the old one, forget this one, and make a new one. It might help?

[Fiction]

I'm fine how I am now. Thanks everyone for your replies :)

[HeroesAndCons]

sunce ur feelin better if u ever need to talk feel free to pm me im here for you

[Fiction]

Thanks :)