Help me..

[Bethany803]

I feel so horribly disgusting when I eat.

I look at food and I think "Look at me. I'm this way, because of that."

Avoid. Avoid. Avoid.

I feel okay when I don't eat. Less stressed. Lighter.

Numb.

I'm sad and scared when I eat.

I distract myself so I won't get the urge to do it.

I lie about eating and make up excuses as to why I can't.

When I do eat, I want to purge. I need to purge.

I tried to pruge last week but people kept coming in the bathroom.

Eating makes me want to cut.

Snapping a rubber band keeps me from cutting.

I'm losing my mind.

[Quahog]

Calm down. Don't feel upset. Your not losing your mind. You're going to be just fine.

I understand that you also cut. So that's two problems, and I want to help you get rid of both. How long have you been trying to purge yourself? Have you ever talked to anyone about this?

[Bethany803]

I've been trying to purge for a while, its hard though.

I've been cutting for six years.

I've never told anyone about my issues with eating.

[Fiction]

Everything that you decribed up there, I do and feel too. You are not alone.

I try and look at other people, and realise that they are eating, so so can I. I tell myself eating is good for me. You should try to eat healthy foods, they don't make you feel as bad as other foods.

Purging is very dangerous for your health and not a nice thing to do at all. It starts off occasionally at home, and then you're doing it when you go out for meals, in public toilets. It's not nice.

Maybe you should tell someone about your eating issues.

Feel free to pm me if you want to talk :)

[Kitty]

you are not alone <3 <3 <3

you just need to find another habit or slowly break it. I know it's impossible but after a 2 years of work and 3/4 years of suffering from an eating disorder i feel like i'm nearly done recovery.!! <3 you will get there <3