John Marston
February 5th, 2011, 02:29 AM
1: I just felt the need to write this (very mild steam let-out). So, I was going to hang out with a friend today. As I was walking to the place where we are going to hang out, I'm txting him, asking him if he wants to still hang out (im txting other friends that are out and about too, updating them on whats happening for god knows what reason) and he doesn't reply. So, I keep walking and he finally reply's saying that he can't (after asking me to earlier). He then explains that he has been feeling tired for a little bit and doesn't want to. Even though I'm a little bit annoyed as to why he didn't txt me earlier about it and tell me. So, I keep walking and txt my other friends that I'm probably not going anymore because my friend isn't going. See, if this were to happen to any of us then the other friends would say 'come hang with us', no matter what, because we're just that great a group of mates, or so I thought. So, I'm walking, waiting for them to say 'come hang with us' when I get a reply saying 'Ok'. At that point I stop and automatically cancel the plans we had to hang out tomorrow, and replace it with me getting new heap/earphones, which is not at all what I want to be doing. But I don't do anything about it. And it's like I did that to try and punish them but all I get is another 'Ok'.
2: Lately, I feel like me and my friends are drifting apart. I have had little/no communication with them and whenever I want to txt them or communicate with them, I just don't. Although, i'm not the type of person that usually starts the txt conversations, and they do (which they don't mind), it's just like they've given up on trying to communicate with me. And it's like I've subconsciously given up talking to them too. Even now, as I write this, I know that I should be txting them instead, trying to fix our friendships that seem broken, but it's like my mind has put that in the undo-able section of my actions. I just don't know anymore.
(This will most probably be needed to be moved to The White Padded Room. So, if it's necessary (praise goes to Symone[Fact] for somehow making me take a subliminal image of her correction, when I spelt necessary wrong, and stick it in my memory) to be moved then move it)
2: Lately, I feel like me and my friends are drifting apart. I have had little/no communication with them and whenever I want to txt them or communicate with them, I just don't. Although, i'm not the type of person that usually starts the txt conversations, and they do (which they don't mind), it's just like they've given up on trying to communicate with me. And it's like I've subconsciously given up talking to them too. Even now, as I write this, I know that I should be txting them instead, trying to fix our friendships that seem broken, but it's like my mind has put that in the undo-able section of my actions. I just don't know anymore.
(This will most probably be needed to be moved to The White Padded Room. So, if it's necessary (praise goes to Symone[Fact] for somehow making me take a subliminal image of her correction, when I spelt necessary wrong, and stick it in my memory) to be moved then move it)