Losing my mind. Literally.

[Magenta]

I feel... not like two people who switch but like there's someone else inside me. I've talked about Them. They are the thoughts. The bad thoughts. She controls them. She is the bad me. She is me. She is my mental voice but controls my thoughts. She makes me cut. If I do, she shuts up for awhile. She tells me I'm worthless and don't deserve help so I don't talk.

But I know she is me. But I don't want to cut. I want to get better but for whatever reason, she takes over and won't let me. She is evil. She wants me to suffer. She doesn't like school so I slack off when I really enjoy it. She hates other people and I just want people to care about me.

But she's still me. Help. I want her to go away. I don't want this evil me inside. I'm worried she will come out rather than just torturing me.

[Quahog]

Why don't you try listening to music. Put some headphones on. To zone out yourself. Try not to listen to your bad thoughts. If you know it's wrong, and not right don't do it.

If you still have trouble, you might have to talk to a therapist. I hope you end up feeling better.

[Magenta]

I see a therapist and I'm seeing a psychiatrist on Tuesday. But she is telling me to go and cut with a knife. I'm scared of knives. Those aren't my thoughts. They're someone else's. I've dubbed that someone else as her. She thinks knives will be best. I'm not going upstairs in case I can't resist to make the thoughts go away.

She briefly suggested overdosing. I won't but it's tempting.

[Quahog]

You have to zone out those thoughts. Your going to hurt yourself if you don't. Overdosing, and cutting yourself isn't right, and you know that. Just put some headphones/music on, and calm yourself down.

Tell your psychiatrist about your problem as well when you see them.