well...this sucks.

[KodieBear]

Hey, VT i just need to vent some things. So over the past week my sister moved out, a friend came out to me and said he had a crush on me [ :P ] , my friends are arguing, i was diagnosed(?) with depression, forced to a therapist, and denied medication by doctors. idk whats wrong with me. i cant cry any more, let alone show much emotion. i hate everything. everything i touch is messed up in some way. now i cant even find joy in my everyday hobbies. i never feel...whole. i dont even believe in God anymore. really, whats the point in it? religion is stupid anyways. i just wish there was a light at the end of the tunnel.

[Fiction]

Not being able to find joy in everyday things is a sign of depression. I know you said you've been diagnosed with it, but maybe that's a good thing? Not a good thing you have depression, but a good thing you have the diagnosis. Surly it answers a lot of your questions and means people can help you. Medication isn't the only way to help, co-operating with your therapist could be the answer to feeling better.

Not everything you touch messes up. Your sister moving out (I assume an older sister?) is just a normal part of her growing up, nothing to do with you.
Your friend saying he has a crush on you is hardly you messing things up. That shows you are loved and liked by your friends!
Arguing friends is also a normal part of teenage life, and certainly not your fault.

I think you just need to realise you're not doing anything wrong or messing anything up. Feel free to contact me if you want to talk :)

[KodieBear]

Not being able to find joy in everyday things is a sign of depression. I know you said you've been diagnosed with it, but maybe that's a good thing? Not a good thing you have depression, but a good thing you have the diagnosis. Surly it answers a lot of your questions and means people can help you. Medication isn't the only way to help, co-operating with your therapist could be the answer to feeling better.

Not everything you touch messes up. Your sister moving out (I assume an older sister?) is just a normal part of her growing up, nothing to do with you.
Your friend saying he has a crush on you is hardly you messing things up. That shows you are loved and liked by your friends!
Arguing friends is also a normal part of teenage life, and certainly not your fault.

I think you just need to realise you're not doing anything wrong or messing anything up. Feel free to contact me if you want to talk :)
well its not the fact that they did it, its the effects that came from it. like, i dont even talk to that friend anymore. anytime we get near each other its awkward (he agreed when i told him). and when my friends argue they always put me in the middle and make me the songbird between them. its ridiculous, but i'll get over it i guess. sigh...idk i guess your right though about me not actually messing anything up.

[Fiction]

I understand what you mean about it being awkward. Yesterday night I spent the whole night in hospital due to a suicide attempt. For the friends that know I guess it's going to be pretty damn awkward. I think the trick is to pretend like nothings gone on for the most of the time, but maybe have an hour or so where you talk about it. So it's not so awkward between you anymore :)

[KodieBear]

thanks! sounds like pretty decent advice :) just a question tough..was it your suicide attempt, or a friends? (if you dont mind that is.)

[music is my soul]

hey man i read that u dont believe in God anymore. if i were u i would try to pray from time to time . i have found it really helps. sometimes it takes a while but u have to learn to be patient ( u dont have to do this but i am a catholic so i kind of need to say it). im not trying to say u have to believe in Him but im saying try to ....idont know how to say it...how about... try things sometimes. u know trial and error.

[Fiction]

thanks! sounds like pretty decent advice :) just a question tough..was it your suicide attempt, or a friends? (if you dont mind that is.)

Mine.