o_O fuck.

[georgiamay]

On the way to school this morning, I bought a shit load of food. I wasn't thinking, at all. The second I took a bite, all I could think was, "It doesn't matter, you can throw it up after." It wasn't until I'd eaten about 1000 (at least) calories that I realised, "Wait, to throw up you'd have to use the school toilets. Way too risky. I went anyway, and locked myself in one of the cubicles and waited until the girls had left, but they never fucking did. I gave up in the end and wandered into assembly a bit late. (The girls in the toilets gave me weird looks considering they were in there from the beginning, but I didn't give a shit, they were year 8's.)

I haven't eaten since. I have to later, for dinner. I can't, I ate way too much, it was disgusting. I've been doing sit ups since I've been home trying to burn off at least some of the calories that I ate.

Kathy was texting me while I was in the bathroom (another reason the girls probably think I'm a freak if the could hear it :P) and she did calm me down a bit. But I've been thinking about it all day. Calories, calories fucking calories.

I was doing my best not to binge and purge. I'm doing it half as often as I was before, and I've been trying to stop gradually. But the next time I binge, I'm not sure I'll be able to stop myself.

sorry, rant.

[Fiction]

And I was sitting in my drama lesson desperatly hiding my phone for the teacher :P

Georgia considering that's all you ate all day, 1000 calories is not that much and you should eat dinner. Maybe if you regulated your diet more (eating 3 decent meals a day), you wouldn't feel like binging, and you wouldn't get this feeling of guilt. I know how you feel and I know it's not a nice feeling, but my eating regular meals maybe you can get over it.

xxx

[HeroesAndCons]

Well at least u can look on the bright side
u tried toburn off the calories in a much more healthy way
if u need to u can pm and vent to me

[Kitty]

And I was sitting in my drama lesson desperatly hiding my phone for the teacher :P

Georgia considering that's all you ate all day, 1000 calories is not that much and you should eat dinner. Maybe if you regulated your diet more (eating 3 decent meals a day), you wouldn't feel like binging, and you wouldn't get this feeling of guilt. I know how you feel and I know it's not a nice feeling, but my eating regular meals maybe you can get over it.

xxx

I agree. If you eat more regular but less amounts not only is this healthier to your body, you won't binge.

You can always ring me or find me in school ANYTIME you want georgia. Im normally in Mr Waltons room :) <3 Trust me...im a joiner anyway <3 xxxxxxx