Food to me

[love music]

to me, food is nothing. i've never been a big eater. and lately, due to my living situation, i have eaten less. i used to be anorexic, but i went through treatment and i've been better. but lately i feel like im going to relapse. the more people tell me to eat, the more i dont want to. for me its all about the control. my life is rarely under my control but what i put into my body is always my choice. so what does a girl do when she doesnt want to eat? she drinks. alot. i drink energy drinks like crazy. they keep my body going off of nothing. its also about body image. ive had a problem with how i look for years. and thats probably because of my sister. she always would verbally beat me down because of my body. i know im kind of getting off topic now, but this is all connected. because i dont like how my body looks, i dont WANT to eat. the worse part is the people close to me are worried. and i cant really put their worries to rest because they know what i've done. and theyre worried ill go all the way again. what should i do?

[Quahog]

You shouldn't feel upset because people are worried about you. They only want to help you. You're admitting that you have a eating problem, and that's the first step to success.

Have you ever talked to a therapist about your problem? Or is it just something you just kept to yourself?

[Kitty]

you should remember how much free you where after you recovered. You feel in control when you starve but it's the total opposite effect, the truth it anorexia is in control.

Try not to relapse babe <3 concentrate on being sensible otherwise you will really regret it <3 xxxxxxxxx

[love music]

ive been to therapists, but they dont really help me. and im really trying hard not to relapse, but its getting kind of hard with my parents trying to tighten their grip on me.

[Quahog]

Your parents just want you to be safe. So it's natural for them to be worried.

[love music]

well they dont really know about it much. they tend to ignore it and hope ill solve it on my own when its mostly their fault. they try to control my life which causes my control issues. and they dont listen when i try to explain how they make me feel.