Getting over it?

[Amyxoxo]

So ... I have stopped self harming.
I have been "clean" for a long time.
But I cant help but feel like I just want to go back to the place I was when it was really bad and I was doing it many times a day. I liked it. A lot actually.
I liked it when no one knew and I didn't have to miss school to go talk to a counsellor. I liked it when I could hide in my room without everyone thinking I was going to kill myself!
I liked it. No one cared because no one knew.
I think if I could have anything, it would be to go back before anyone found out...
Does anyone else feel that same?!
Amy :) xxx

[FullyAlive]

Yes completely, although I managed to convince my mum I'm fine so home is relatively the same. But school is so different and I hate it, I have to watch what I say, cover up cuts with lies no one actually believes, talk to various teachers on a regular basis it's awful.
But you just have to remember that although it doesn't feel like it it's all for the best. You're getting the help you need. One day it will be back to normal.

[Njathind]

Agree with you completly, you just wanna run away and never come back. Its like mum, dad, college, work, school or whatever it may be, just piss off and leave me alone, I like this and no one can stop me.

But as louise said, its for the best, you getting the help you need and you will be back to how you were before the cutting demon took control of you.

Stay strong hun :hug:

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Like the above posters have said, at the end of the day, despite how you feel, in the long run its for the best. And you're actually getting the help you need.

Just keep sticking with it, and if you think back to that time, try and distract yourself, get your mind of it.

Good luck with everything and stay strong :)

[Quahog]

Yeah we all have times where we want to go back to cutting. Just try not to. Each day that you don't cut is a self accomplishment for yourself.

[Mike321]

I completely agree with you, sometimes I feel like I always want to go back to that time, where I could do it every day and people weren't so suspicious.
Things seem alot easier when you think about it like that.
But like everyone else has said, its good that you get the help that you need, in the long run its better that way

[Alaph]

Don't go back.

No really, don't.