Can't take this anymore.

[Noooooooooo]

I don't know for what i'm living for. Everyday seems the same. It has always been the same. I don't do anything worthy to live. What is the meaning of life? I don't understand it. We live for a huge amount of days and in the end we just die. I just want to die sooner then later. I want it to be over sooner. Life to me is more like hell. Why should I live being tortured so many years? I hate life, I don't aprove it at all. The most miserable part in this is that people made me think this way. Yeah, thanks to fucking people I am thinking like this. I didn't deserve it. Days passed by when my mind started of loosing control of what it is thinking. I don't know who I am anymore thanks to them. They changed me.Thanks to them I am not fucking thinking straight 24/7. Now flashbacks are getting by me and that means going through that hell again. I just want to die I can't go through it again its too fucked up.

[Quahog]

Who is they? Is they your parents? A friend, family member?

I just want you to know, that we all care about you here. We don't want anything bad happen to you. I personally don't want you to do anything, as far as hurting/killing yourself. I want you to know that you can talk to me, or anyone else here, as we are open to whatever problems you have.

[Noooooooooo]

Who is they? Is they your parents? A friend, family member?

I just want you to know, that we all care about you here. We don't want anything bad happen to you. I personally don't want you to do anything, as far as hurting/killing yourself. I want you to know that you can talk to me, or anyone else here, as we are open to whatever problems you have.

This may sound stupid but they are all the people I know. It took them years to change me. I just don't know what hapening to me now. Everyday in the past years has been like this but now its getting worse, its like speeding up. I'm getting the flashbacks too often...

[Quahog]

Well, what are the flashbacks about? Did someone you know die? Did something tragic happen to you?

[Noooooooooo]

Yeah, alot of tragic things happened to me the past years. I just don't want to remember them but flasbacks keep showing up regularly. Its torture. I hate those flasbacks I don't want to remember any of it. They keep getting worse every day. I prefer to die then to re-live those memories again.

[Mxio]

i felt like this before and sometimes still do the thing i did was just block out the hate and don't listen to what they say about you.

just remember people shouldn't control your life and letting people control you is just going to give them more power stand up and be confident you are a beutiful human being like many others on this planet and if we were made to torture each other then why would we be givin personalities and thoughts and love if they would just be taken away from us. remember you are perfect the way you are don't let anyone tell you deferent...


i hope i was able to help.

Please don't double post, use the edit button instead - Syvelocin

[Jonathan M]

I feel the same... There's nothing to live for... To look foward to anymore. I just started being this way 2 weeks ago and it's been hell... Things always get better so don't cut it short before they do... Hold your head up high hang put with the people who care about you and win this fked up marathon it's all we can do

[Noooooooooo]

Well, the thing is that nobody cares about me =/
I've been betrayed so many times that I hardly even talk to people anymore. My family doesn't even care about me. All the time they are mocking me about my social anxiety disorder. All people I know do that to me. The flashbacks of the main cause of my social anxiety disorder are standing in my way right now. I just recently found out how pathetic of a human being I am. I have lost everything that a human being should have. My ''world'' is falling apart

[music is my soul]

hey sometimes i feel lik shit too. i met this girl over the summer and fell madly in lov with her. now every night shes the only person i think about.

i guess wat im gettimg at is everyone has days lik these and some people have weeks lik this. and some people get them more then others. im here around 9:30 or 10 if you want to talk sometime.

[Severus Snape]

At the very least live to indulge in things that make you feel good. Ultimately everyone is a hamster in a wheel running aimlessly and mindlessly through life, but even some life, however monotonous and seemingly futile it may be, is better than none at all. I would much rather live and experience loss and pain than to never have lived at all. If you now find yourself at your lowest low, congratulate yourself. It can only get better from here.

Some reading that may help you understand some of the questions you ask is Meditations by Marcus Aurelius.

[Noooooooooo]

Thx for the posts :)

Anyways, I'm in a much better mood right now ^^