I'm fucking fat.

[Aceso]

So thats it. My own mom called me fat today, at a friend's funeral. She told me that I was stuffing my face and pigging out, and that people kept asking her why I was eating so much.
Truth? I was going to puke it out again. I had had nothing to eat for twenty for hours, with full intention of purging. But I couldn't, there was nowhere to go, it was packed. I just want to scream and cry and exercise until it's all gone, because there is no way I can purge it now, it's too late. I must have eaten at least 2500 calories. I feel disgusting. I feel fucking horrible. All that hard work to keep slim for nothing.
I don't want to eat anymore. From now on my weight is only going to go in one direction - down. Thanks mom. I feel so much better.
Last time I weighed myself I was 113Ib, but I bet that has changed. Fucking hell, I can't keep eating like this. I just want to die.

[Kitty]

babe...if your actually seriouse on loosing weight (though 114 is not overweight AT ALL) starving will not work. You will break no matter how strong you think you are.

You need to have a balanced diet. Sso you can be healthey and live fricking life. there is more to life than eating...food...calories...and so on. I spent 5 years wasting my life in this...and im still not out of it.

You can't blame your mum...:( She just wants you to be healthy and gorging out to puke it again is not healthy :( <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Magus]

You need to have a balanced diet.
A perfectly balanced diet regime and an exercise routine is all you need to lose fat.

[Quahog]

Well, maybe your mother just wants you to be healthy. If you talk to her about things like that, maybe you can tell her that you want to go on a diet/exercise plan. Purging isn't healthy, I only hope that you stick to a good diet, because I don't want you to hurt yourself.

[Coker34]

basically what everyone else said. a balanced diet and maybe a 10-15 minute exercise a day. a nice jog may keep your mind clear, but dont resource to starving or anything unhealthy. its just unhealthy, plain and simple lol. plus, 113 is very healthy compared to me :p

[Alaph]

You don't need to lose weight, you need to stop hating yourself. Try to just be happy with how you are. xx

[Fiending_the_freedom]

What everyones telling you is right, if you actually DO want to lose weight, the only way to lose it and keep it off is to have a healthy diet and exersize.
The only thing you are going to gain from purging is having your teeth decay and fall out from the acid in your puke.
Is that worth it?

[Magus]

The only thing you are going to gain from purging is having your teeth decay and fall out from the acid in your puke. Is that worth it?That's not the only hazard. You will lose a lot of essential minerals and nutritions that are only absorbed and digest in your tracts -- making your quest of losing fat truly far. There are materials that are need for your process of fat burning. Yes.

Honestly - Honestly: Eating tons of food and then throwing them away is truly stupid. And many people regret doing it over and over, since they know its hazards.

The only time I induced vomit is when I had a serious stomach upset and food poisoning.

Believe me, if I had the time, I would have done what I need to do: lose weight and become fit.

Try to substitute sweets and candies for fruits and vegetables. Apple instead of malteseres. Carrot instead of Doritos. Yes. :yes: - Fresh fruit juice instead of canned sodas.

If you can do that, then you are on the right track. :yes:

[HeroesAndCons]

U are the oppisite of fat

[Aceso]

You can't blame your mum...:( She just wants you to be healthy and gorging out to puke it again is not healthy :( <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

She doesn't know about me throwing up at all. To everyone else, all they saw was me (apparently) stuffing down food.

Purging isn't healthy, I only hope that you stick to a good diet, because I don't want you to hurt yourself.
I'm aware of the damage that can be done to the body, but I can't stop - it's like everytime I overeat my body says ''Too much you fat pig! get it out. Now.''


You don't need to lose weight, you need to stop hating yourself. Try to just be happy with how you are. xx
Thank you for your kind words, but my self esteem is like, this big at the moment: -
Suffering with self harm and depression for two years doesn't help. I know that for a fact but I find this an easier alternative to cutting. When I say easier its easier to cover up. It doesn't leave any external wounds, and I feel like I'm achieving something...

I had about 750 cals today. Lost 1 Ib.

[italiancutie]

dont let it get to u and ur perfectly fine the way u are now

[Alaph]

Thank you for your kind words, but my self esteem is like, this big at the moment: -
Suffering with self harm and depression for two years doesn't help. I know that for a fact but I find this an easier alternative to cutting. When I say easier its easier to cover up. It doesn't leave any external wounds, and I feel like I'm achieving something...

I had about 750 cals today. Lost 1 Ib.

Ok, but there's nothing wrong with you, so the problem is more with your lack of confidence, rather than having any reason to lack confidence.
Even if you did lose loads of weight, I don't think you'd feel any better about yourself, because I don't think you're hating yourself for real reasons.
You need to focus on accepting yourself, rather than changing yourself.

Don't feel like you're achieving anything by self harm, you're not, you're just making it worse, try to eat about 2000 and feel ok with that.
Don't buy into your self hate like that.

[Charleigh]

A perfectly balanced diet regime and an exercise routine is all you need to lose fat.

And that is the genius answer =P

[Kitty]

She doesn't know about me throwing up at all. To everyone else, all they saw was me (apparently) stuffing down food

But binging with out puking is not healthy aswell.

[Advanced A]

Hey, um im not the best person to offer advice when it comes to weight gain/loss.. I have had times when iv felt overweight, but never really fat.

I have to agree with most people posting here, with the thought on purging being the worst idea out there.
Uh.. i dont really know how to word what i want to say, so please dont take any offence to what i type.

Firstly, anyone can eat anything they want, its not a matter of what contains what, its a matter of eating in moderation. If you wish to eat junk food, sugars and drink pop, you will need to work off the extra calories and what not you take in.
Every bit of excercise helps, whether its out playing sports with friends, running or jogging by yourself, or walking into town.
But lets say you sit around all day reading, using the pc and watching tv, you cant really expect not to gain a bit of weight no matter what you eat.

Oh another note or something iv been told, is your body, if starved, stores food the next chance it gets, so regular eating intervals, breakfast, lunch and dinner daily, helps to stop that.. but not eating for days then charfing all at once.. would be giving your body the wrong ideas.

Ok so thats that outa the way.. theres also the confidence side of weight.
This is where i dont want to offend.. but it seems you lack confidence, which is most definatly something everyone deals with throughout their life, and anyone saying no is most likely lieing.
Who cares if you were eating huge amounts at that funeral, and more along the point, why should you care that they cared, or talked to your mother about it.
You wernt eating so much for the fun of it, you had your reasons. Thats none of their business, so personally, i wouldnt take notice of their comments.
But i guess your mother would be woundering why you were eating so much, i know my mum would probably be worried thinking she didnt feed me enough.. But yeah every family is different, so im not sure how she acts towards you, calling you "fat" doesnt give me the nicest viewpoints of her.

Ok yea.. so thats all i can think to say.. and i really hope some of my babble helps.

Please excuse some of my spelling if there are mistakes, iv checked it over and to me.. its understandable.

Cant be sure if this posted.. so ill try once more.. dont want to have typed this for nothing o.o