am i mental or what?

[green]

Ok so this is wierd and I really dont get it. ok so I like everyone gets anxiety from time to time and i will also sometimes when im alone by myself for a day get depressed and upset. Also this is strange but...I want to have a mental illness. I dont know why but i do. Can anyone help me with what i should be doing. either with the anxiety and depression when im alone or the whole i want a metal illness thing

[Quahog]

No. You just need to probably find something you enjoy doing. Probably join a club at school. Or try writing, or doing something physical like football or things like that.

[TheMatrix]

i think i know what it is...
you probably want something to blame for your depression, etc. a mental illness would "solve" that.
is that it?
no offence, btw.

[wiip]

holy shizz I have exactly that!!! I don't know, I get SERIOUS ups and downs for no reason, or the slightest provocation, and it'll be a lead weight on my chest, or balloons- almost literal feeling.

But I get this inexplicable wish to be mental, that it was a condition.

My other thing is that everywhere I go I create new selves.. Let me explain: everywhere I go that I've been, it's like I'm a new person: I act almost totally different. All the time I want to be me- my true self inside- but all I do is I become these people. You could give me the same stimulus in three different scenarios (importantly, with three different groups of people from my life), and, as long as I didn't remember the stimulus from the other times, I'd react totally differently. Can anyone tell me if I'm loopy?

And yet I still get this wish that I had a condition. I don't understand it. I'll think 'maybe I'm schizophrenic' or something, and I'll actually enjoy that thought. I don't know why. Maybe because it explains away my weirdness. Maybe because it would set me apart from the others. Maybe because it would make them treat me differently from the sh*t they treat me like now. I don't know. Does anyone else get what we get? and OP, I'm sure this is what I get! rsvp pls.

thanks. Sorry for the massive ranty-monologue...