Syvelocin
January 25th, 2011, 07:13 AM
At this point, I've really had it.
I'm done waking up in tears. I'm done waking up four hours earlier than I should but unable to go to sleep because I'm freaked out.
I have this thing with medication for mental problems. I don't believe in it. But I think I want to actually talk to a psychiatrist again and see if they can put me on one of those medications that supposedly help with that like in PTSD. And that therapy thing. I am just so through being afraid of going to sleep when the majority of people aren't, they get all their sleep pretty much every night. I have insomnia to start, so even when I do sleep the full night I wake up and feel just as tired as I was last night. Nightmares completely do not help.
I also have growing paranoia that I'll have another night terror, or even what is called sleep paralysis, which completely freaks me out. I've woken up to it on numerous occasions, oddly it's usually after some of my worst nightmares.
I hate how often I wait up until the sun rises. I also have this major headache to accompany me this time.
Apparently, I was whining in my sleep. And it was described as unsettling. I woke up during that, so I'm pretty sure what part of the dream that was during. That's related to something we can't really erase to fix the nightmare, it's ingrained in my subconscious.
So Imagery Rehearsal Therapy (no clue where I'll find a therapist certified in that...) and anticonvulsants then? I'm desperate enough to give it a go.
I'm done waking up in tears. I'm done waking up four hours earlier than I should but unable to go to sleep because I'm freaked out.
I have this thing with medication for mental problems. I don't believe in it. But I think I want to actually talk to a psychiatrist again and see if they can put me on one of those medications that supposedly help with that like in PTSD. And that therapy thing. I am just so through being afraid of going to sleep when the majority of people aren't, they get all their sleep pretty much every night. I have insomnia to start, so even when I do sleep the full night I wake up and feel just as tired as I was last night. Nightmares completely do not help.
I also have growing paranoia that I'll have another night terror, or even what is called sleep paralysis, which completely freaks me out. I've woken up to it on numerous occasions, oddly it's usually after some of my worst nightmares.
I hate how often I wait up until the sun rises. I also have this major headache to accompany me this time.
Apparently, I was whining in my sleep. And it was described as unsettling. I woke up during that, so I'm pretty sure what part of the dream that was during. That's related to something we can't really erase to fix the nightmare, it's ingrained in my subconscious.
So Imagery Rehearsal Therapy (no clue where I'll find a therapist certified in that...) and anticonvulsants then? I'm desperate enough to give it a go.