Gahhh

[zebravomt]

GAHHHH!!!! I just want to say it. but how!?!?!?! 3 small words, thats it.... meaning less! The only thing pushing me away it the only thing thats holding me back. Yes i lie about how much i LOVE you but its cuz i know you dont feel the same! I am 99.99999% positive you dont love me back! You love the smart, skinny, petty girls. and im none of that. I changed for you, i try so hard but what! NOTHING! Dont you get all the hints i send you! Sometimes i want to just hold you up agenst a wall and kiss you......

I am so lost. how do i tell him that i cant let him go. I have just noticed why i lie about me liking you, cuz i dont want to like you. Im crazy for saying that! I know i am! I dont lie to you, i lie to my self......

How, how can i just come 100% clean......

[Alexithymia]

Erm... Realized I was an idiot!
Vibrant was right. Sometimes it just doesn't work out. :/

[Quahog]

Maybe you and this person don't belong together? Some things just weren't meant to be. Why do you have to change who you are for this person?

[zebravomt]

i didnt chamge just for him. i changed cuz of him. i never cared what i lookex like untill i fell in love with him.... i wanted for him to like
e hile at the same time be true to myself. this is me and he helped me cimd myself. i just cant tell him thatthe onlyrhing thats holding
e back is pushimg me away, amd thats him