Don't want to feel happy.

[Magenta]

I just don't. Stop telling me I need to get better. I don't want to. I like being alone now. I will go back to isolation. I was better off that way. Don't shove meds down my throat that mess me up and don't work. Leave me alone, don't ask what's wrong because I won't tell you anymore.

I'm closing off again.

[Njathind]

I know exactly how you feel Jo, just going in to full on hibernation mode feels so nice, personally it makes me feel safe and secure. Locking yourself away and doing silly things may feel good at the time but it really isn't. When you have the rare good day, you look back and think why did I do that.

But then you start trying to run before you can walk :( And then it all gets too much

My advice to you is take it all a little step at a time. Maybe try and stay out of your room for half an hour. Watch TV in the lounge perhaps before you lock yourself away. Then maybe you can extend the time your out of your room. And you can slowly but surely overcome this.

:hug: I hope your ok :whoops:

[Ambrosia]

Darkness always seems so much more appealing then light once you get so used to it. It's way too hard to adjust...But sometimes you got to. Take a mini-vacay away from the rest of the world. But don't stay gone too long. You should always return because one day the dark will be too hard to adjust to and you'll be happy staying happy.