the 2nd time this month.

[Aceso]

Last night I carved ''Resist'' onto my stomach. I'm going to keep the word there to remind me to stop over eating. My mind is telling me how fat I am, and I believe it.
Today I went to see my family. I had a huge roast, and pudding. I felt like I had eaten a ton, and I felt depressed, trapped. My mind told me that If I kept eating like this I would be a fat pig.
I told everyone that I felt sick, and was just going outside for some fresh air. I tried to throw up twice but couldn't get much out, and that confused me because I had eaten a ton 15 minutes before.
But I'm scared. I know I'm doing damage to myself. It's like my mind is split in two. One says that I'm over eating, the other says that It's dangerous.
When I go to school I have a small pot of salad. I can't even look at the pizza or other things. I can't imagine myself eating that. But I don't know why, it's like something is stopping me from eating those things.
At other times I can have chocolate and cake and other horrible things, but I feel the need to throw it up afterwards because I feel bad.
Help me guys, what's going on?!

[Alaph]

Seriously, stop cutting yourself.
Even if you were a fat pig, which you're not, the cutting would be a much bigger problem.
If it will make you feel better, you can eat only healthy things, but don't starve yourself.
It will probably be easier to resist chocolate and cake and other horrible things if you eat enough other stuff.

[Fiction]

This sounds pretty typical of EDNOS, Of course I can't diagnose you, but one characteristic of that is switching between different eating habits. So switching between binging and starving. I do it a lot too. I don't seem to be able to eat normally, only one or the other. Maybe you should try and get help?

I'm sorry i'm not much help, but you're not alone. Feel free to pm me if you want to talk.

[Kitty]

i agree with fiction.

Sounds like EDNOS. It's a dangerous cycle that can wreck your life very quickly. :(

You gotta get this under control and get help before it spirals out of control and loose everything. TRUST ME <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx