Freak.

[Magenta]

FREAK.
The letters etched into my flesh with the metal, drawing the blood.
I'm the girl who wonders what it would be like to cut her own face.
Isn't it ugly enough?
I like it. The pain, the blood. I'm proud of what I did.
Fuck the world and social acceptance. I like things this way.
Hi, I'm me.
The freak.

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

You know i don't think that your a freak, Your smart, beautiful and you help people with your site and you have helped me personally if you need to vent you know i'm here for you and i"m not going anywhere.
Do you need First aid, can you get it, can you stop the bleeding, sorry if i'm asking to many questions i just don't want you to get hurt to badly.

[Njathind]

Jo your not a freak, your a wonderfull person that unfortunatly is a little troubled, Your not ugly, If its you in your photo album you look good, you have nothing to worry about.

I hope your ok and this isnt your way of saying you cut your face :confused:

:hug: Just remember what Mrs Misty Miss said, your a beautiful smart person.

[Love.Hate]

Your not a freak.
Im always here and i hope your okay xx

[Magenta]

I didn't cut my face. But I want to. I've been wishing to for a long time.

[Fiction]

I've wanted to do this before. I've done it before sort of. I've cut my lip, and a small cut on my face. Felt no better than anywhere else, it's not worth it. If you already have issues with your face, how are scars going to make them any better?

[Magenta]

Because I don't like my face. A scar won't make it better or worse. It will just be like it is now. Gross.

[Fiction]

Maybe you think that now, but in years to come, when you've sorted out your self esteem issues, you will be pulled back down again by your scars.

[Magenta]

This is true, Kathy... Thanks. But I've given up trying to stop for awhile anywhere else. Too much effort and I have exams coming up.

[Fiction]

But arms and places it's slighty different. You can cover that up. How are you expecting to cover up your face? People often unfortunatly judge people on looks. I think scars on your face will effect you so much more than scars anywhere else.

[Magenta]

Yeah. But I already have scars on my face so I doubt it matters. Acne and scratching I have had for eight years. :(

[UnknownError]

Jo your so pretty. Your not ugly at all.
Cutting your face will just make you feel worst.
Im on msn atm if you want to talk.

[Magenta]

Ugh. I still feel ugly. I look like a boy. My face is all chubby. It had no cheekbones and my nose is too big. My left eye closes more than my right so I look like an idiot in photos.

[Fiction]

We all have faults, and things we don't like about ourselves. Now try telling us what you do like about yourself.

[Magenta]

I don't know. I like that I can sing but I rarely do so anymore. I guess I like my hair even if it is out of control.

[Fiction]

Then start singing again. Singing helps me to cope a lot too :)

[Magenta]

I would... but it seems like I've lost a lot of my motivation. I guess I could use my poems as lyrics but meh.

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

Here this song helps me give it a try.
MILEY CYRUS Party In The USA Everything is Gonna Be Okay

[Kitty]

awhhh babe...your not the only one that feels this way <3 your not a freak you've just got a harder time with feelings and emotions than others <3 xxx