summer.

[georgiamay]

Ew, summer.

My dad just booked our holiday, and I'm not sure what to make of it. If I could, I'd spend the whole time in jeans and a T-shirt, but my dad would guess why, and my cousins would think I was a bit of a freak. So I have to wear bikini's and stuff. >.<

My scars are pretty bad, and they won't be gone by then. In fact, they won't be gone for a long time.

I don't think I will have been able to stop cutting all together by then. I would try and go cold turkey, but everytime I've tried that, I've always fallen back, badly. Each time I stop, I start again, and it's worse than the time before. So, my dad is going to make me wonder around in a bikini, showing off huge purple scars all over my hips and thighs, not to mention how self conscious I've become about my body in general. I've always been self conscious, but now, I'm a lot worse.

I don't know why I'm posting this tbh. I suppose I need advice, what the hell am I supposed to do!?! Wonder around while people staring at my scars? I don't want that. So, ermm... What do I do now?

[Njathind]

I think your dad making you wear bikinis and stuff like that is a bit harsh.

If I were you I would talk to your dad (I dont know how easy that would be for you) and just explain that you dont wanna wear that stuff, you wanna wear jeans ans shirts.

If you would rather not talk to your dad, just "foreget" to pack your bikini :D

If not have you tried waterproof make up I've "heard" it can do wonders, just dont put on too much :D

Hopefully you can find something to cover up everything and you can have an amazing holiday :cool:

I guess I'm lucky in the fact I prefer to go skiing and stuff like that :D

[LeRock]

Hey, I haven't posted before but I hope this is helpful... Why don't you try boardies? They should take care of the hips and thighs. Considering your age is fifteen (haha, I'm fifteen too :S) I'm guessing you probably wouldn't want to wear a rashie, but you could try that, even a long sleeved rashie if u wanted (I still wear a rashie and I don't even have any scars! Actually, I like to see others in rashies so then I know I'm not the only one >.<). or even one of those bikini tops that has like a bit to cover your stomach?? I dunnno... I just know I personally always go boardies and a rashie.

[Syvelocin]

^ That's what I was thinking. Or they do just have plain little skirts that are made to go over your swimming costume. They don't look out of the ordinary at all, most of the time they're just a self-conscious thing. When I simply have to swim, like when my family took a trip down to the beach two summers ago, that's what I would wear. A one-piece and one of those skirt things. My scars however are now also on my calves so that doesn't work anymore for covering them up, but it would work perfectly to cover scars on your hips and thighs.

[MadManWithaBox]

Try like those tiny Jean shorts. They'll cover most of your hip, and win't look look odd.

[Love.Hate]

Hey i have had this problem.
In places like next in the swimwear area they tend to do bikinis with matching net dresses that you wear on top of your bikini. Also wearing tankini's/ full swimming costumes has helped me alot. I think wearing shorts in the pool/sea is a good idea too.
Im sorry you feel so crap about going on this holiday, it must be hard. I wouldnt go cold turkey because of the relapses. But definatley cutting down on how much you do it, and in less obvious places is always an idea.
I hope you have a good holiday :) x

[Fiction]

For my holiday last year, I "forgot" to pack my bikini. As Matthew said, maybe you could wear shorts? I didn't go in to pool because I didn't want it to ruin my hair... Of course that wasn't the reason at all.

Try and fade your scars as much as you can with bio oil and such. And use waterproof make up. I reccommed Maybelline dream creamy foundation :D

[georgiamay]

Thanks guys. :)
I'll have a look around and try stuff out and see what works best.