to much memorys >.<

[insanity]

I fell apart today, way more then I have for ages I actually thought I was losing my mind.
My counsler suggested I move bedrooms cause my old room had no light the only small room faced into the garage, so as suggested I moved rooms, but the room I was moving into is smaller then my last room so had less room for my junk. I find it really hard to let go of things, so I have almost everything I have ever owned still.
But there wasnt enough room, I was told I had to get rid of stuff but I just cant keep it all (duh) but for some reason I cant, I just feel apart... it felt like none of the stuff actually belonged to me, all the stuff reminded me of a different person so long ago, I didnt want any thing at all, but I couldnt chuck it out because it felt like it belonged to someone else and they might want to come back to it.
but thats stupid its all mystuff.. it just brings back to many memorys that I dont want to let go, but it doesnt feel like mystuff anymore and I just cant chuck it out. I just hope who ever owns this stuff and all the happy meomorys come back soon.
I hid it all under my bed, but now I cant sleep. I lie awake at night and look under my bead and see all thoose things there and it reminds me how useless I am that I cant even chuck something in a rubbish bin with out crying.
I sound so stupid even saying all this it doesnt even matter, I dont know even why im posting this now Im wasting everyones time ranting on like this, so sorry if you just read all this and now think I am a complete lunatic...

[smalltowngirl9189]

I know how you feel =) I'm 16 and I still have a lot of toys from my childhood (cheveron cars, barbies, diarys, ect) Only because of the same reason they sit in boxes under my bed and idk what to do .

[Charleigh]

Awww.
I wouldn't know how you feel, but I can relate to it a little bit.
I had a diary when I was 8, and I wrote everything in it, but my mum threw it away. No idea why. But that was the first ever diary I had completed and actually took care in. But, hey its gone :/
Hun, I suppose sometimes you have to let go of things and try and move on from those memories, while they are there they are going to sit on your shoulders, they will only budge if you get rid of them. Good luck, im here if you ever need anything
:hug:

[insanity]

thankyou... I will try to get rid of some stuff.. its not like I will ever need it again :p

[Charleigh]

Good luck! Well done.
I am proud of you.
:hug:

[TheMatrix]

i have the same problem.
only für me it's more of a food thing. i have a soft spot in my heart for animals. i can't stand it when people throw away/misuse meat. i feel like i could kill them.
i hope that all the killed animals are in a better place.

i'd better stop thinking about this before i cry...