why do i do this?

[anamcara]

someone please tell me how to stop ruining peoples lives, my ex, my boyfriend who has also just become my ex...my first ex i turned into a psycho, and ive just really hurt someone else, i was born to hurt people, born to make them suffer, i was put here to destroy people...i really do not mean to, i do it subconsiously...but only realise when its to late...if i dont die before, ill die a very lonely old woman...but i wont be the cat lady cause all the cats will hate me and run away from me in disgust lol...someone please help...if not can you help me to understand a little better about why i have a tendancy to ruin and demolish people??? thanks x

[Alexithymia]

I'm the same way. Whoever happens to come within my vicious grasp gets misery and pain all through there life. Occasionally I wonder if I'm better off dead. Normally I try and just be selfish. Sorry I'm not much help. I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone in the destruction club.

[anamcara]

Thanks, it kind of makes me feel a bit better that I'm not alone. It gets really hard sometimes, if you need to talk bout anything I'm always here xx

[Ambrosia]

You honestly don't "destroy" people. What happens happens and is in no way your fault unless you actually head out with a purpose to "destroy" those people.

[Kitty]

No i feel like this.
I feel like who ever i touch falls down this hole with me.
So i push people away.
It only took my ex to break up with me and tell me to stop pushing people away and if i love my self you can love others. That will all stop. :) <3 xxxxxxxxxx