cut for the first time

[thesphinx]

Last night i was really upset about some of my friends, we had a big fight and it was a mess and on top of being deppressed lately it was just to much! i was having anxiety attack and i just snapped i wanted to just hurt my self so i took a knife and just cut 4 Very shallow cuts in my thigh they only bled like a drop of blood each but it felt good and i want to do it again.......
im scared :(

[Bobby]

So you want to do it again..but your scared.So your scared of something that feels good. What are you scared of specifically?
Well your the one who choose to cut your self, and you know your afraid of it, so it is your job to face your fears or stop them. In this case I would stop them.

[thesphinx]

im scared that i will do it again

[Bobby]

Well your the one who controls your self..so YOU have to throw away the knife, YOU have to throw away the knifes.

This doesn't make sence.. you want to do it again.. but your scared of doing it again.

[thesphinx]

no it felt good and i want to do it again but i know i shouldn't so im scared that i will give in and do it again.

[Bobby]

Ok...so.. I have 2 things to say:
1) It's your choice to cut. Fight the temptation and hide the knife or blade
2) Find another healthier way to release anger

[schrei jess]

Diego it isnt that easy. Once you go there, there isnt turning back without a lot of help.

Look Mike, choosing to cut was the worst choice you have ever made. But its okay, things can change.

You wont be able to throw away your knife or blade, you can do it, but you'll be digging for it later. You will need to talk to someone if you want to stop this before it goes to far, you can stop it, but you have to want it to stop or it wont.

Being scared is normal, I was scared when I first even thought about it. Cutting is a scary thing, you've heard about it, you might have even seen it. You think "Ill never do that, it's so stupid", but when you think about it...you like it. And thats scary. I get it, I definetly get it. You will be scared for a while, either while you continue to cut, or while you are talking someone to stop it before it goes too far. And that's good, once you stop being scared of it, that's bad. That's when you know you wont be able to stop, and you'll go farther then you dreamed of.

Find someone to talk to before this goes to far, you'll be happy you did. Make sure it's someone who can try to help without judging or assuming, because people who do that dont help. I tried to talk to someone before I got way into this, but they didnt help. Now here I am three years later, going farther than I thought I ever would. Please get help, you dont want this. It isnt any fun...it may help you now, but you'll hate yourself tomarrow.

[trixy]

cutting yourself is a brave thing to do in the eyes of some, however it requires even MORE bravery to STOP.

Personally, i have never stopped fully; like a habit, self harm is hard to get rid of. And it gets harder to stop as time goes on.

So, please, try as hard as you can to stop NOW. otherwise it'll be even harder in the future.

[JJJ]

Dont cut again i no wot its like but when you giv in once you giv in again and again. Its addictiv like drugs. i cut and I wish i didnt but everytime I try to stop stuf hapens and i just cut again.