I Lost Myself

[Imsilly]

Hey all,
Recently I noticed I don't know how to be myself.I was always humourous in school and all,I always joked and bullshitted around people never took me seriously and when something goes wrong,people will blame me.They won't trust me and stuff like that.
The only real reason why I was doing that was because I was always the shy guy and kidding around makes me less nervous and I always tend to bullshit around kiddingly.I've been doing this for over 5 years now and I've kinda lost myself.
I don't really know how to socialize around people without doing something really dumb.I don't really have many close friends due to this.I really don't know how normal people act and behave;I don't know how to talk to a girl without cracking up a joke or saying something dumb,I don't tell my secrets to anyone as I don't trust anyone.
Honestly,I am a nice caring guy who doesn't really show emotions.People think that I'm a snob because of the way I act,But the truth is,I am just too shy to show any emotions and I'm afraid of what others might say and think of me.
I don't know who I really am nor how to show normal emotions.I don't smile or laugh unless a joke is said.But basicly,most of the time I keep a straight face.
I'm too scared of what people think of me.I don't really know how to mix around with people especially girls.
I don't reall fit in with much people in my school.

How do I act like a normal person?

[Mrs.KermitTheFrogx]

Firstly :; Theres no such thing as 'normal ' we are all who we aree
and nobody can EVER change that :)
You sound like Chandler of 'Friend's'
(If you have never watched it its an american comedy series on E4 )
But yu need to trust people ... let people get close to you
Smile and always be in a cheery mood then people wont be like
'Urgh hes such a downer'
Dont bullshit ... its neverr good... dont bitch about people cos this will never get you liked , just be kind tell but dont tell loads of jokes bcos ppl will think your a wannabe !
I got over my shyness by flirting alot ...
i dont no if this will work but i do it and everybody thinks im a very confident person ...
just remember there is a line beetween being cocky and being confident
GoodLuckBabeex

[Afraid Of Me]

i think, even though its hard
the best thing is to stick to the things you like and just stop worrying about what others think
if worrying about what other people think of you is stressing you like this then it shouldnt be important to you
i'm going through a bit of an identity crisis right now so i know how you feel about not knowing who you are
isnt a good feeling =[

[Myrnodin]

I agree with Kermit.thefrog there is no such thing as "normal" behavior, and in fact most "normal" people are actually quite dumb mindless people.

Im normaly a quite closed person; in the outside im happy and nice, but i have a thick line drawn which people cant cross when getting close to me, so i know that feeling of "solitude". The thing is that a good way of starting to socialize is by finding a good person who can help you. (Thats what happened to me) A friend perhaps, who can serve as model and teacher.