Not Quite Sure..

[Sova]

Sorry guys, I'm kind of new to this so.. Well, I'm not really the type of person to talk about these things, I feel like it just brings other people down, So I might not be very good at this haha

Not so long ago my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer, it was a big shock and she is currently undergoing chemotherapy. I get really worried about her sometimes, I feel I shouldn't talk to her about things that upset me because I don't want to add to all the worries she obviously already has.

To add, on new years eve one of my best friends died of cancer at 16, the day I was going to visit her (she died at 8, I was going to visit her at 12 so I didn't get a chance to see her). It was crushing for everyone who knew her, a lot of people were kept in the dark about it as she didn't want anyone to remember her when she was ill. It really got me down in the beginning, and I generally stayed in bed staring at my walls for about a week. Even after I couldn't bring myself to do much at all, and I became ill for a while, as a result I have missed a lot of school which isn't something I can afford when I'm trying to get a higher in Biology and Art. It's also prelim time in a week, and I'm so behind I can't possibly see me passing. I'm feeling really stupid and useless and I'm not sure how to motivate myself again, I just seem to be feeling empty and stressed all the time and I'm not moving forward at all which I know I cant afford to do if I was to achieve my goal of getting two higher grades and get in to the veterinary nursing course I want.

Well, that's my rant over. Just wanted to get a few things out. And hey, if anyone has any ideas on how I can motivate myself, shoot.

[myskias]

well lack of motivation is definitely a problem isnt it! well there are plenty things that can help motivate you! you could get the good grades to show your mom how well your doing in school.. which could in turn make her happier (and studies show that cancer patients do MUCH better if they have a good view on life).

Think of all the animals you will be saving in the future. think of those sick puppies and cats and bunnies that you will heal and bring back to full health! isnt working on a measley grade worth all that in the future?

think of yourself.. its your dream to become a veterinarian.. if you dont get these high grades, you will have more trouble getting into a nice college, which would also make it harder for you to pursue your dream!

Theres plenty of motivation out there for everybody! you just need to look in the right places. :) but also you cant bring yourself down like youre doing! your not stupid and youre not useless! you are a human being.. you create your destiny, your path in life. you have power over A LOT more than you think you do.. so take control of that and do your VERY BEST!

if you need me im always here :)

oh and ps.. talking to your problems doesnt make everybody feel depressed :)

[Sova]

Thanks, that made me smile xD I'm just starting to make a positive change at school, but getting caught up is still a long way off.. I still occasionally just can't deal with school and have to stay home. And in the area I live it's kind of awkward for everyone if you talk about that kind of stuff, and I'm not good with awkward situations XD