Bath
January 16th, 2011, 05:51 PM
It sucks when your friends abandon you. It's even worse when you deserve it, swimming in lies and guilt, and your own mother believes nothing you say anymore. I'm also failing school.
I had lots of supportive friends last year. This year, they all stopped caring because I "stopped" caring for them. I didn't. I was just too depressed to talk or hang out. I've told my mom so many lies that she doesn't believe me anymore, with anything I say. in the car she saw my fresh cuts through the bracelets I had on. she didnt say anything because her bf was in the car, I promised her I'd stop. I didn't.
I was super tired, she screamed at me "are you stoned or something?" with murder in her voice. I said no, but of course, she has no reason to believe me...
Straight Fs this quarter. cool.
it's dark in my house.
my anxiety is through the roof.
i feel.. disconnected. help.
I had lots of supportive friends last year. This year, they all stopped caring because I "stopped" caring for them. I didn't. I was just too depressed to talk or hang out. I've told my mom so many lies that she doesn't believe me anymore, with anything I say. in the car she saw my fresh cuts through the bracelets I had on. she didnt say anything because her bf was in the car, I promised her I'd stop. I didn't.
I was super tired, she screamed at me "are you stoned or something?" with murder in her voice. I said no, but of course, she has no reason to believe me...
Straight Fs this quarter. cool.
it's dark in my house.
my anxiety is through the roof.
i feel.. disconnected. help.