oscarlichen
January 14th, 2011, 09:03 PM
This is a really long story and I don't know if it's supposed to go in sexuality or dating but I just decided to choose this forum. Enjoy this heartbreaking tale, and please please please post some comments to help me. (PS YOU HAVE TO KEEP UP WITH THE NAMES OF MY FRIENDS. THERE'S ALOT.)
This story took place Friday, December 23rd. Right before winter break. This story is about a boy, of course. A boy that will never ever like me back. It started when I saw him the first day of school, I didn't really pay attention to him. Until a couple of weeks ago. It was lunch, and one of my best girl friends was talking to me about him, how much she liked him. His name was Kyle. So anyway, I was sitting at my table in lunch with a bunch of other girls, and he goes to talk to some of his friends at another lunch table near ours....
Before the story goes on, I need to explain something that happened only a couple days before this. This really ugly bitch named Jen who i've always been nice to so I have no idea why she's so mean to me, she asks out this kid named Ed who is way hotter than she is. So I said that Ed could do better, it doesn't seem like that much of a big deal. So Jen and her friend Sydney decided to team up and make my life as horrible as possible.
So Kyle was over at the lunch table near our lunch table. Sydney was sitting at my table for some reason. So I said to my friend Alyssa " Oh my god number 54 is so gorgeous", I was saying his number because I forgot his name and I was too lazy to remember, and luckily he had his basketball jersey from his basketball uniform on which was 54 or something like that. So she says "NUMBER 54?" and I go "..yeah." Of course Sydney hears me.
So I one of the lunch cashiers is my good family friend, her name is Marie. Usually during lunch I go to Marie's station with a couple of other people that are there regularly because we like to hangout there. So right after I said he's hot, I decided to go to Marie's station because I was bored. My table gets pretty boring. When I came back I went to my friend Delia's table to hangout. She was sitting at the table near the windows with her friend Sam( He's a boy who I really hate). I proceed to tell Delia for some reason about me liking Kyle and bla bla bla, because of course out of all my friends, Delia is my BEST friend. She deserves to know. At the end I sighed in relief, "I'm glad nobody will ever find out about it". Little did I know that when Sydney was listening to my conversation that I was having with Alyssa she was thinking about telling Jen. Almost ironically, right after I was done talking to Delia, someone came up to me. He asked if I liked Kyle. I said no. Kyle then came up. Then another person. And another. All asking the same questions.
It was only human nature that I lied. I had to say no. Over and over and over again. And then I took my lie to a whole nother' level. I said that I already had a boyfriend, that I was taking to the movies and hooking up with that night. Of course that was a lie, being that I hadn't had nor did I want to have one for a long time after my past experiences. So the whole lunchroom laughed and laughed, and after that we went about our regular day.
Every single day, Kyle looked at me with the same look. Freaked out. Eventually he learned to ignore me. He still doesn't talk to me. My friend Jean talked to him after lunch. She told me he "Thought he was cool because a guy liked him". And now, almost a month after the incident, I still feel like I love him. I do love him. And I know the word love is overused, but I really think I know what love feels like now. Hopeless love. I know he will never ever like me back, he's straight. I don't know what to do. I see him every day in lunch....and gym. He's in my gym class, of course he had to be in my gym class. Anyway, I'm in love with someone who will never love me. Please tell me what I should do. I just don't know anymore.... Thank you.
This story took place Friday, December 23rd. Right before winter break. This story is about a boy, of course. A boy that will never ever like me back. It started when I saw him the first day of school, I didn't really pay attention to him. Until a couple of weeks ago. It was lunch, and one of my best girl friends was talking to me about him, how much she liked him. His name was Kyle. So anyway, I was sitting at my table in lunch with a bunch of other girls, and he goes to talk to some of his friends at another lunch table near ours....
Before the story goes on, I need to explain something that happened only a couple days before this. This really ugly bitch named Jen who i've always been nice to so I have no idea why she's so mean to me, she asks out this kid named Ed who is way hotter than she is. So I said that Ed could do better, it doesn't seem like that much of a big deal. So Jen and her friend Sydney decided to team up and make my life as horrible as possible.
So Kyle was over at the lunch table near our lunch table. Sydney was sitting at my table for some reason. So I said to my friend Alyssa " Oh my god number 54 is so gorgeous", I was saying his number because I forgot his name and I was too lazy to remember, and luckily he had his basketball jersey from his basketball uniform on which was 54 or something like that. So she says "NUMBER 54?" and I go "..yeah." Of course Sydney hears me.
So I one of the lunch cashiers is my good family friend, her name is Marie. Usually during lunch I go to Marie's station with a couple of other people that are there regularly because we like to hangout there. So right after I said he's hot, I decided to go to Marie's station because I was bored. My table gets pretty boring. When I came back I went to my friend Delia's table to hangout. She was sitting at the table near the windows with her friend Sam( He's a boy who I really hate). I proceed to tell Delia for some reason about me liking Kyle and bla bla bla, because of course out of all my friends, Delia is my BEST friend. She deserves to know. At the end I sighed in relief, "I'm glad nobody will ever find out about it". Little did I know that when Sydney was listening to my conversation that I was having with Alyssa she was thinking about telling Jen. Almost ironically, right after I was done talking to Delia, someone came up to me. He asked if I liked Kyle. I said no. Kyle then came up. Then another person. And another. All asking the same questions.
It was only human nature that I lied. I had to say no. Over and over and over again. And then I took my lie to a whole nother' level. I said that I already had a boyfriend, that I was taking to the movies and hooking up with that night. Of course that was a lie, being that I hadn't had nor did I want to have one for a long time after my past experiences. So the whole lunchroom laughed and laughed, and after that we went about our regular day.
Every single day, Kyle looked at me with the same look. Freaked out. Eventually he learned to ignore me. He still doesn't talk to me. My friend Jean talked to him after lunch. She told me he "Thought he was cool because a guy liked him". And now, almost a month after the incident, I still feel like I love him. I do love him. And I know the word love is overused, but I really think I know what love feels like now. Hopeless love. I know he will never ever like me back, he's straight. I don't know what to do. I see him every day in lunch....and gym. He's in my gym class, of course he had to be in my gym class. Anyway, I'm in love with someone who will never love me. Please tell me what I should do. I just don't know anymore.... Thank you.