Confused.

[Aceso]

Within the past three days, I have been called Anorexic by at least 4 people.
I weigh 51kg (112Ib) and am 5ft 6in. About a month ago I weighed 119Ib.
The thing is, is that I feel fat. I look in the mirror and hate my legs, my stomach and hips.
I have been having at max, 1000 calories a day. Usually no more than 800.
But today something different happened. Because I have diabetes, I was trying a new ratio of medication, and it made my blood sugars go funny, so I had to eat some food. But I have had not much food over the last few weeks, so it was kind of a breaking point. I had 2 slices of bread, covered in honey, and 1 and 1/2 bowls of cereal, coated with chocolate powder. I just kept eating and eating. Afterwards I knew I just had to get it out. I felt disgusting. I just felt like crying, and I went out to the very end of the garden and squeezed behind the shed, and threw up, twice.
The thing is, is that I didn't get much out, hence why I did it twice. I can't get all those extra calories off my mind, especially since I had some soup today as well, meaning that I must have had 100 in the soup and at least 800 in the Bread and Cereal. I just feel so disgusting, i can't believe that I was such a pig.
Am I developing anorexia/bulimia, or are people just making a fuss? I don't think I am thin or skinny, and I was only throwing up because I ate so much. I am getting so frustrated that people are telling me I am fucking thin, I am not thin or skinny. I am fucking normal. Why does everyone keep telling me I am skinny? It annoys me because there are people on here who are Anorexic/Bulimic, and it pisses me off when my friends say ''Oh my god Hannah, you are Anorexic.'' Because there are people on here who are, and I'm not. P.S; They don't know about the throwing up.
So tell me guys, Am I Anorexic? Because I'm sick and tired of hearing it...I mean, fine, if you guys on here tell me I am, then maybe I will reconsider what I have said, but I just want some conformation by some mature experts on wether or not I am, rather than a group of giggling teenage girls. You can understand why I am frustrated, right?

[1_21Guns]

Nobody can tell you if it definately is or isn't.
It's quite possible that with it becoming apparant people have been looking at your body, you've become increasingly self concious with it yourself, and from that you've been picking out 'flaws' which aren't really there.
Purging isn't going to do you any favours.
As you said, you're normal, keep that in mind and nevermind what everyone else thinks. They're probably just jealous.
If you're diabetic it's important you do eat, you're not being a pig at all, you're being human, and as humans we need to eat.
I can see why it's annoyed you, just don't let it develop into something because some girls can't get over themselves.
:hug3:

[Fiction]

Your BMI is 18.1, this is a healthy BMI for your age.

It's obvious you are starting to have issues with your weight. Purging and eating under 1000 calories a day is not normal. However, anorexia has a certian diagnostic criteria that you do not meet... but it sounds as though it could be the beginnings of EDNOS. This could easily develop into Anorexia.

You do have a problem, but it will be a lot easier to get out of it now than it will be at any point in the future.

As Natalie said, as you are diabetic it is very important you eat. Not eating will not do you any favours it will only make you dizzy and unable to concentrate.

Also the purging, it may be at the end of your garden now, but in a few months you'll be doing anywhere- in public toilets. That isn't nice, believe me.

Try to stop weighing yourself, and stop counting calories. These are some of the things that turn your issues with weight into an obsession and therefore a disorder.

Feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk.

[Aceso]

Okay, thanks guys.
I will try to eat more. But I'm just terrified that once I start eating I won't be able to stop. :(
I will try as much as I can not to purge. I haven't done it properly in months, until today. It's weird, because the first time I tried, I just lost my gag reflex. Is that even possible? Like, I choked for a bit, but then nothing happened. And then, I tried again and I did it twice....What?!
I'm Guessing EDNOS is kind of like a midway thing then? Is it where you have some diagnostic criteria, but not all of it?

[Fiction]

There are two stickies in this forum, one on EDNOS and one on anorexia and bulimia. Take a look at them :)