Death.

[whodunit]

:D ive been the other me lately. People say that emotions can make you feel like a totally different person but im pretty sure i just am a different person. The other is funny, he looks at the world in such a dreamy unreal way its hard to take anything seriously right now. Ive been so sensitive. Ive had 3 breakdowns in the past week, my friends kid died, i had to talk my friend away from suicide, today i was asked if i want to be institutionalized. Im not. I had to leave school just because i could feel myself about to snap, and i did. I got in the car and had to explain that the reason i mumble so much and talk so quietly is because im not worth it. Its weird telling authority things like that. I have been crying most of the day. My friend is having a bit of a problem with cutting and she wont answer me. So now my legs are bleeding quite a bit, thats not so relevant to this forum though. I just feel really funny, like its the end and i have the right to goof off. Beauty in the breakdown and all that. Should i be worried? like ive almost cut my wrists, im not sure why i didnt. For the first time in a while i can feel that my friends care, but its just not enough. I dont know how selfish that is but if im going to keep going in this world i need something more. does anyone else feel this way? im kind of desperate for a reply so to anyone who cares please reply.

[gotanyDman]

Alright, boy-o. Time for some tough love.

It seems as though that you're surrounded by a lot of morbid things, such as your friend's kid dying and your friend's almost suicide attempt. But why do you have any reason to consider cutting yourself? Yeah, so maybe you mumble because you lack some self-confidence. But that's no reason to be down, that's just a part of your personality. But, other than that, you yourself really don't seem to have any problems. You said yourself that your friends care, a lot of people don't have friends who care. So you should feel lucky that you do!

The bottom line is: maybe if you stopped looking at everything as some big melodramatic effect on your life that you should sulk about, you would realize that you have people who care for you and whom you care for. You're lucky, so get over yourself and get back to your life.

[whodunit]

Thanks for the reply and i'll 'get over myself' but i just really dont think you can absorb enough of me in this one very small portion of writing to make the judgement that i have no problems. You just need to know more to say that, so i feel that was ignorant, and it made me feel like shit. Just saying. Good advice though, i am one dramatic person. I have always viewed the world as a very dramatic place, i don't understand why you don't. That is beside the point. But i will try that, i have before and it didnt work, but i will. Again thanks for the response.