broken promises

[jbraud]

Last night, despite the promises i made to my best friends and people close to me, i ended my record of 2 months without cutting. for no reason at all. now i feel like crap cause of it and feel like doin it again cause i really have nothin to lose.

i think i am going to tell my parents. i have never made it past the 2 month mark, so that just proves that i cant quit on my own.

[deadpie]

Last night, despite the promises i made to my best friends and people close to me, i ended my record of 2 months without cutting. for no reason at all. now i feel like crap cause of it and feel like doin it again cause i really have nothin to lose.

i think i am going to tell my parents. i have never made it past the 2 month mark, so that just proves that i cant quit on my own.

Here's the deal - you don't want to quit cutting for people, you have to want to do it for you. Your friends aren't going to understand why you do it or what it's like with that cycle of self harming; which consists of SHing, shame, guilt, and confusion, than repeats.

Like I said, quit cutting for you - not your friends or family. About everyone ends up relapsing and doing it again, so you can't blame yourself, even though you did it. Things get stressful and triggering. Make this relapse the one that matters and says to you that you can choose to stop this time - realize what the people you care about are going to feel, and understand that you don't want to lose these people. You have to care for yourself in order to help them.

[Myrnodin]

Ok, you cut yourself, broke some promises. And? You are gonna throw more dirt into it by giving up? I dont think your friends made you promise not to cut, so that you would stop cutting. Think of it, they made you promise so that you could realize the strength you have.

They are not gonna get mad or anything, you didnt do anything wrong, you made a mistake, we all do, but if you give up now and quit, then you will be doing something wrong. If you cant get past the 2 moths mark... Awesome, you ARE at the two months mark, a lot of people (even here on VT) cant make it to the 2 weeks mark, you should be proud, not sorry. Be patient, you will stop eventually, just dont despair.

And about promises... a lot of promises are not meant to be acomplished, but to teach something to him who makes the promise.