I failed.

[Xerxes]

I was a cutter for a few months, starting at about this time last year, and I finally stopped with help. But then a couple days ago I just couldn't control myself. I was feeling terrible and my depression was worse than it had been for a long time and I cut/burned myself for the first time in about 4 months. Now I feel like a failure, I feel worthless. :cry:

[Love.Hate]

Your Not a failure, you simply slipped up.
You have done well to get to 4 months, now you have proved you can do it dont get caught back in this cycle again. Improve on your four months, dont look at it as a failure. Look at is as a one off mistake.
You are not worthless!

Im here if you want to talk x

[DarkHorses]

Hey Alex,

When you self harm, it's not as simple as getting help one day and stopping the next. It's an uphill battle, and it gets worse before it gets better. One day you'll think you're healed completely, and the next you'll be cutting yet again.

You are definitely not worthless, and you definitely shouldn't feel so guilty. It's extremely hard to handle ourselves when we're feeling depressed, and that's why we turn to negative and temporary 'solutions' to our problems. They don't help for long, and they end up making things worse rather than better, but they often seem to be what helps most at the time we are feeling depressed.

It might seem like cutting is your only hope when you're feeling this way, but guess what? That's definitely not true. There are many healthy alternatives to cutting. For example, what's helped me most is writing. When I'm feeling depressed and have the urge to hurt myself, I write about how I'm feeling, either in a poem or in a diary format. Surprisingly, it helps even more than cutting seems to.

You reached out for help before, and that's a really strong thing to do. Is there anyone you can turn to again and talk about the incident you had a couple days ago? It really helps to have someone there to talk to. Maybe you can even think of someone to talk to when you're feeling the urge, and who can possibly talk you out of it.

More importantly, though, you have to have the faith in yourself that you can do this. I truly believe that if you believe in yourself, it will be all the easier for you. You CAN make it through hard times without cutting. It IS possible. :)

I'm here for you if you ever need to talk things through.

[jamieallover]

I was a cutter for a few months, starting at about this time last year, and I finally stopped with help. But then a couple days ago I just couldn't control myself. I was feeling terrible and my depression was worse than it had been for a long time and I cut/burned myself for the first time in about 4 months. Now I feel like a failure, I feel worthless. :cry:

You are far from a failure and far from worthless. Everyone slips up from time to time. The good thing is that you realized that it was a slip up. Cutting/Buring, anytime of self harm, is an addiction. It takes more than just 4 months, a year, maybe longer to completely erase it out of your system. Just keep strong, find different techniques to do to take your mind off cutting. I know that when I get the urge, I hold ice cubes.Not for long but just long enough. Addicition is the TOP hardest thing to beat, but I really think you can beat it. Your strength shows just by writing this message, you know what your doing is bad and your willing to try and change it.

Best of luck!

[Njathind]

Awww no bud :hug:

4 Months is pretty amazing though, you did so well to come that far. As others have said this is just a slip up, you might feel like a failure but trust me your not, you only fail if you dont pick yourself up. And you dont sound like the kind of guy that is gonna stay down, so therefore your NOT A FAILURE and you shouldn't beat yourself up about this.

Have you tried distraction techniques, theres usually at least one for everybody. They can be a real good alternative and so much better than cutting or burning.

I hope your ok Alex, stay strong and keep your head high.

:hug:

[Charleigh]

You didnt fail hun. You just stumbled and fell, now get back up and fight on!!
Here if you wanna talk x
:hug: