scared of food?

[krissie_love]

i know this sounds really weird but i literally get scared of food. i dread lunchtime cuz my friends try to force feed me. i will only eat 500 cals a day max and if i go over i get really depressed and feel terriable about it. in my brain i know that i'm not fat i know i'm a size zero. but ana tells me i'm fat. that i'm worthless and i believe her most of the time.

i actually don't know why i'm posting this... so yea...

[Fiction]

I totally understand this. I feel exactly the same.
I've always thought there must be a big difference between what you know, and what you feel, because I also know i'm skinny, but it isn't enough for me. I still feel too big.
500 calories a day is not healthy, but i'm sure you already know this. Maybe you should try and get professional help before you do serious damage to your body.
Feel free to contact me if you ever want to talk :)

[Stay]

Hello Krissie,

You need to seek help as soon as possible. Not to scare you or anything, but at the rate you're going, you're going to end up in some problems later down the road. It's a legitimate fear to be afraid of food, there's not much we can do, but support you. Try looking for some mental health resources in your area or I would advise contacting a doctor when you have the time. Eating disorders are an addiction and get worse over time.

Here to help,
~Stay

[krissie_love]

i already talked to a therapist but she didn't say anythin except you not fat. and i was like duhh i already know that. i want to eat but if i do i feel like ill gain like crazy. how do i do that without gaining?

[Fiction]

It depends what your weight is. if you are very underweight you can't. You will have to tackle your body image problems, realise you are not fat, and put on weight.
If you are on the heavier side of healthy, or over that, you could try eating healthily, but a decent amount. You will loose weight but it will be healthy.

[krissie_love]

i'm 5'3 and about 90-95 pounds. i really don't wanna gain anymore.

[Fiction]

I know the feeling. I'm trying to make myself gain more. I'm 5"4 and the lowest i've been is 96lb. I'm now 100lb. I still feel horrible when i get on the scales, so I just don't get on the scales.