ever wake up & cry your eyes out?

[Fiending_the_freedom]

I just had a flashback.
i dont know why.
i was jsut lying in bed.
my pillow is soaked from tears.
it was of my fights with My moms ex-boyfriend basile.
She never did anything.
ever.
she never talked about it.
she never aploigized once he was out of our lives.
she never talked about how she knows i go to therapy & talk about him.
How she always stood there watching slitently as he screamed at me telling me i'm worthless & good for nothing.
or how when he almost hit me & she knew it was over nothing.
the many times i'd have to call my dad crying at one in the morning because the yelling was just too loud.

she never talked about it.
i know its hard for her.
but i'm her fucking child.
& now i dont live with her becuase of that bastered & its all in the past [for her] but here i am sitting up at 2 am crying about a year after its over.
fuck.

[Barelythere]

aww tegan :hug:,
i understand that you cant just forget it, im sure you mom hasnt just forgotten it either, she is properly denying it happen, thinking that will make it better, but it wont
have you tryed talking to her about it?
tell her what you said here!
dont worry about being upset about thinking about it huni, its normal, natural, and its all part of the healing process!
i hope your feeling better :hug:
and come on msn soon havent talked to u in ages!!
love ya xx

[Bobby]

Things so bad somehow are what become sketched in our mind, never to fade away...while the good things are remembered shortly. You just have to overcome what has happened in the past, and use your stregnth to make your future the best it can be.
You can make it though hun :)

[terith]

*Big Hug* :) um i hope you feel better and all,im not really a good person for compasion but *hugs* :)