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vanhalenftw1539
January 7th, 2011, 06:18 PM
hey you've probably seen things like this before but whatever


im a guy and ive been emotionally attracted to girls my entire life. i used to like certain girls throughout elementary school, and i would stay up for hours at night thinking about kissing them and stuff. i used to have a crush on one of my female soccer coaches. i remember my friend had a picture of his female cousin at his house when i was younger and i couldnt stop staring at her because she was so pretty. things like that. so thats the background info. ive never been attracted to guys that way and i dont plan to be.

however, a couple years ago when i started puberty, i began to have a sexual attraction to boys my age. only ones that look about my age, especially certain ones that i know personally. i always fantasize about jacking off with them or seeing them naked. ive been curious about various things, like armpit hair, which is dying down because im getting some. i dont want a relationship with them or anything, and like kissing them and serious stuff like gay sex seems weird. but thats the main thing i fantasize about.

ive never liked a boy. at least i dont think i have. i have liked many girls, although that has slowed down recently. also, girls my age think male celebrities like taylor lautner and people like that are hot. i cannot look at a male celebrity or older guy and think hes hot. im not attracted to older guys than me at all. just around my age or a few years younger, and not nearly all of them. its not like i rate guys on hotness, thats weird. just certain ones that i think it would be cool to see naked or jack off with.

the reason im concerned is because my closest friends are males and all of them are undoubtedly straight. they always like someone, have had many girlfriends, and talk about how hot girls are all the time. im not as girl crazy. ive liked girls before, but my feelings arent as strong as my friends say theirs are for girls. but theyre still there. and ive never had feelings for a guy that way.

i can get turned on by girls my age or older as well, just not as easily. also, i can look at certain girls in my grade and think theyre gorgeous or adorable, certain ones so much that it takes my breath away. this is not true for guys. if i look at porn, its naked girls not men, like hustler and playboy. gay porn is disgusting to me, straight porn cant even have an adult man in it or i get turned off.


RECAP:

- i have a moderate sexual attraction to certain guys my age, just started during puberty, not older guys and not an emotional attracion
- i do not want a relationship with a man, just a woman; i plan on getting married and having kids
- i have liked girls before but not nearly as often as my friends, and not as much as when i was younger (is it just puberty?)
- nobody thinks im gay, i dont act gay like the guys that have come out in my grade already, i feel straight except for my curiosity
- it is possible for me to get turned on by girls of all ages (except really old of course lol)

emotional attraction: virtually 100% girls
sexual attraction: 60% guys my age, 40% girls in general and raising


is this normal? will i get over all this? is it just hormones? am i gay or bi or what? i dont think i am because i would know if i was but please give feedback based on the info...sorry if im freaking out i just want this to pass and i dont feel normal

grstl
January 7th, 2011, 06:38 PM
I'm a guy and for me it's the other way around. I'm more interested in guys and just curious about girls. However I know what it is to be the odd man out. At least VT is here soyou won't feel so alone.

Sebastian Michaelis
January 7th, 2011, 09:42 PM
yes this is normal and i cant say if your gay bi or str8 because puberty changes things and your friends are probably the same way but don't show it.

Skeptical Bear
January 8th, 2011, 03:17 AM
I'm the same way. I want to marry a woman and have a family with her but I have feelings for guys too.

grstl
January 8th, 2011, 10:21 AM
I'm the same way. I want to marry a woman and have a family with her but I have feelings for guys too.

Watch out! I messed around with guy friends and found out that I liked it....a LOT. Then I met this girl who truly loves me....and I wanted to try being straight and seem more like everyone aound me . Well, to please her and out of curiosity we did stuff and now we have a baby boy. And...I wish I had just stayed with guys. She knows some of my feelingsd and wishes I could offer her exclusive total commitment. Also, what if my son grows up and finds out his Dad is really gay trying to ne straight. It could get really awkward. I am trying to be as good as I can to her and him, but I really crave another guy to love and play with.

vanhalenftw1539
January 10th, 2011, 05:54 PM
see i mean no offense or anything but that sounds a little weird to me, "having a guy that i can love and play with." some thing in my mind is like "whoa, thats not right. you're not like that. that's weird." and i dont plan on experimenting with guys, im sure if they actually wanted to do stuff like at a sleepover or something i would say no because i would feel uncomfortable.

all im saying is that i have somewhat of a sexual attraction only to guys my age, and its making me very confused even though im not emotionally attracted to guys at all. im turned on by girls too

i dont WANT to do stuff with guys, but i do want to do stuff with girls, like have a relationship and eventually sex. like i said ive already had a girlfriend and shes the cutest girl ive ever seen in my life. i cant even think straight when im talking to her because shes so cute. thats what makes me believe im straight because the emotional attraction is all there.

theres just so much pressure to like girls with my friends, emotionally and sexually. they all watch porn and get bj's from their girlfriends and always like someone. and when girls walk up like at the mall or something they're like "well that girls hot." its not that easy for me, so i feel out of place sometimes.

is this normal? do you think my friends are the same way as me sometimes?

ccrunner
January 11th, 2011, 09:32 AM
its normal your curious it will most likely pass i am going through the same thing right now but people who dont know me think im gay because i have many friends that are girls and many that are guys but the girls always kinda follow me around so be glad noone thinks that you are gay