going in circles

[LilTurtle]

if i have to become someone other than me to be normal…. well that just ain't gonna happen. i don't work that way. i want to feel everything around me. sometimes i want to stand up and scream at the top on my lungs. i feel it inside of me and i just want to let it out. i want people to understand me. i'm a simple person. i can't be that difficult to understand. maybe its that people just don't care to understand me. why should they? who the hell am i? i would love to have the gift of inspiration. to be able to get up and sing, say, or write something that people can feel deep down within. i am obsessed with wanting to feel and take everything in. when it rains i watch my bedroom windows cry. i dream a sunrise...the sky pink, clouds like cotton candy we got from the carnival when we were kids. i listen to hear a snow storm. i can see something so amazing, close my eyes and see it all over again. i'm convinced that an obsession can drive your mind in circles.

i dont share my scribbles often because they dont make sense to others. but i connect with some of you guys. thanks. i will stop now. my mind is empty... for now.

yesterday, today and tomorrow
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our minds awake as the alarm sounds it rings a doorbell inside! awake! awake a sound echoes, awaking the person inside. we answer the echo with a deep sigh and think it's another day! we look ourselves in the mirror, only we notice our eyes pushed deep down inside. we wash our faces to freshen up, yet we wash away our younger days! we do everything the same as any other day! there is no different in the first and last! we ponder when will our days change when we can call to some and be heard, we only call these days to the person inside. the seasons of the world change without notice, yet we see changes in the mind of the changing man! want to break free? listen to your heart, the deep echoes, which bounce of the walls. listen with care, imagine, feel, smell the fragrance, extend your open hands, hold the echo as a priceless gift. and walk to your destiny, this time will never come back. history is written.
~~age yesterday, today and tomorrow april 2007

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[Fiction]

Well, you can definatley write. Is this asking for help, or is it a work of art? because if you're looking for comments on your writing I can move these to the open book for you :)

[PJay]

You might be a swan amongst ducks at the moment (trying to be poetical here but its not working lol) but I'd be really surprised if you don't fine once you get out of whatever is stifling you now ( home / school/ town whatever), you are going to do great things. You are creative for a start, and you say you would love to have the gift of inspiration ... but dude, you DO. I'd work with what you have there, honestly.

[LilTurtle]

fiction.... i'm glad you think i can write but that's not the purpose for me laying out my thoughts here. i'm not looking for comments on my writing. i'm not quite sure what am am looking for by posting my thoughts. maybe i'm hoping for some answers.

oh---i understand now. my scribble i added onto the end. my scribbles arent really written for others to read and understand. i realize i posted a few here on the VT but i did so hoping the ones i selected maybe gave some insite as to who i am. i'd rather that you keep it here, but thanks for asking.

so to answer you question. no, i'm not looking for help. i just like putting my thoughts that keep me awake at night into words. its not poetry, its not art, its nothing special at all.... its just more scribbles.

~~age