LilTurtle
January 7th, 2011, 03:28 PM
right now i am scared and i dont like the feeling. what scares me is that you may not like what you are looking at.... the true age. i look in the mirror and dont like what i feel. i'm not a picture on a web site. im not what you see walking down the street. sure you think i am cute, but the physical isn't important. its not what counts. the physical will continue to change. what makes me age isnt something you can look at or even touch. that's true for you and everyone. what makes me age are the words i throw down on a page, the thoughts floating around in my head, the feelings i have in my heart when i see a sun set. its everything on the inside. and some of my insides arent very attractive. some consider me a freak. actually many consider me that. a kid that sits in the back of a room -- alone. i hear what they say, im not deaf. but its ok--- tomorrow comes -- i dont care what they think. thats what scares me at time. you wont like whats going on in the inside... or understand me... or even want too know the real age. there's a broken kid in there. i have more issues than can be explained. but its better that you know all this now. at least for me it is. so before i get attached, you have the opportunity to turn and walk away. become a shadow in my memory. its ok if you turn--- i am use to it, and i understand the reasons. but please do it now.... not later. for me.
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