stuck in a big hole

[insanity]

I thought things were getting better. but no. its supposed to be summer, so why am I hiding inside, away from everything... and I honestly wouldnt care less. I have forgotten how to sleep, I am so tired I stayed up last night crying. I thought the tablets were helping but maybe not. Im so scared about everything, I cant s top crying. I just wont to crawl up in a little ball and die, I cant be bothered with any of this right now. I just wont to feel something again, I dont know what to do, or if there is anything to do..... im stuck.... I need a way to feel again with out hurting myself.... does anyone have any ideas?

[Mrmafia22]

Hey dude, consalt yur doctor, or honestly don't worry about sleeping!!! I used to have the same problem... All I did was forget about trying to fall asleep so then I wasn't stressed out and then I fell asleep.. But srry dude if that doesn't work talk to yur doctor

[deadpie]

I thought things were getting better. but no. its supposed to be summer, so why am I hiding inside, away from everything... and I honestly wouldnt care less. I have forgotten how to sleep, I am so tired I stayed up last night crying. I thought the tablets were helping but maybe not. Im so scared about everything, I cant s top crying. I just wont to crawl up in a little ball and die, I cant be bothered with any of this right now. I just wont to feel something again, I dont know what to do, or if there is anything to do..... im stuck.... I need a way to feel again with out hurting myself.... does anyone have any ideas?

There's many people who will come to VT and say the best way is to find hobbies. Hobbies are tools, but those don't always work.

You want to find a way to help yourself without hurting yourself? Face yourself. You have to stare at yourself in the mirror and accept that this is who you are, no matter who and what has ever tried to mess you over in this life. You're the one in control of your body and yourself.

I could help you more if you tried to elaborate on what is making you cry and whatnot, but if it's too personal I can understand that.

There's this movie called Paranoid Park where the main character writes down the event in his life that shaped him and traumatized him, so what he does is write all of it down, then burn it. You don't have to burn it really, but just destroy it. Once you have control over those events and destroy them on that paper, that's something that will give you more control over it.

Yours truly,

mit.

[insanity]

woah deadpie you should be a counsaler :) thankyou so much... that was really helpful, I never thought of it that way, thanks XD
and thanks Mrmafia I should be going back to counsling soon now christmas and new years is over :)