shit.

[Bath]

Sometimes reality just fades away.. like now.. I'm so aware of everything and everybody, then nothing seems real. It'll feel like dreaming, but I'm awake, and I'm scared. I don't know what I'm doing here anymore.. Sometimes I just want to end it to see what happens next, you know? And that thought scares me. Two days ago I tried to kill myself by cutting until I lost enough blood. It didn't work, blood just poured out and my eyes went unfocused.

I tried killing myself and nobody knew. Nobody knows.
and nothing still seems real.
over-analyzing and over-thinking
I don't understand a thing.

Sorry if this makes no sense because i dont even know what the fuck I'm saying. panic attack. writing it out helps.

[TheSingingBird]

I've gone weeks at a time feeling that same way. Writing it down is a good start, but it seems like you need help. Professional help, because attempting suicide is very serious, no matter how close you get to dying or who knows about it. Call a suicide hotline or tell a school counselor. I wish you the best.