What a terrible night

[MadManWithaBox]

Apologies for another topic people. But that night was fucking terrible. Jesus. Awful. And he almost won again.

[Tristin.]

just keep fighting matt, never give up. you will always have freinds here ready to help
Xx

[UnknownError]

He almost won. But he didn't. It proves you can be strong when you want to be.
Keep it up. (:

[MadManWithaBox]

Not really. It was more along the lines of they restrained me in my bed, so I couldn't get to my blade, and Kathy getting me to call the doctor.

[singeramber]

Matt... He won for me dont let him win for you...

[MadManWithaBox]

I don't know. I know I didn't want to. But if I hadn't been in the state i was, I would of done what i was told, and done it.

[Fiction]

Matthew, you got help. You told him no. I didn't make you tell him no, you did it yourself. You are strong and you can keep on fighting.

[MadManWithaBox]

I wouldn't have been able to without you Kathy.

[Fiction]

Then change it in the future, make it so that you can get the help without someone else. You can do it Matthew :)

[MadManWithaBox]

I can't do it by myself. Not yet.

[Fiction]

Then it's something to work towards. You know I, and many other people on this site, will help you get there as much as we possibly can :)

[MadManWithaBox]

All I can do is try.

[Fiction]

And that's all we're asking :)

[MadManWithaBox]

I'l try for you Kathy.

[Magenta]

In time, you will try for yourself but trying for anyone right now is a great start. We are all supporting you. :)

[MadManWithaBox]

I don't know. Maybe. Doesn't feel like it now.

[Magenta]

Maybe not now. That's okay. You'll work at your own pace and you'll see that some feelings from now may change.

[MadManWithaBox]

I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak.

[Magenta]

I know. I went through a time like that recently. And now, for me, that light is very dim but it's there. Even a tiny little sparkle... You'll find it. Maybe not tomorrow or the day after but if you look hard enough, you can find your glimmer of light.

[MadManWithaBox]

I can hope. But doesn't seem like much.

[Magenta]

Keep that tiny bit of hope close. You'll see it will change. It might get smaller. When it does, don't let go but give it room to grow. When it grows, cling to it with all your might. You'll make it.

[MadManWithaBox]

I suppose :(

[Magenta]

*big hugs* Just hold onto that hope and your inspiration. Never let anyone take those from you. If there's nothing you can do but that... go for it. Just hang onto those two things.

[Fiction]

Matthew as you said to me... KBO! And we'll do it together :)

[MadManWithaBox]

Well like I said, Churchill loves a fighter :)

[Fiction]

That's why we need to fight! And it might take a while, but we will win! :)

[Magenta]

So a fighter is what he's going to get- from you and everyone working with you. ;)

[MadManWithaBox]

Indeed, we shall now

"let us go forward, together"

At least, if I didn't feel shit.

[Fiction]

Don't let that get in the way! You can still win in the end :D

[Magenta]

So we'll wait. You will fight when you're ready. And you've already started. Feeling like shit is just a small bump in the road.

[MadManWithaBox]

I'm tied onto a bed. I have 178 stitches in me. And I can't sleep until I take these pills. And I have 3 drips in me. Still, KBO.

[Fiction]

Exactly! You'll be out of there one day, and getting on with your life :)

[Magenta]

And I'm sure Kathy and others will agree that we will be there as many steps of the way as we can. :)

[MadManWithaBox]

I suppose :(