Reason for cutting...

[Magenta]

Recently while talking to people, I realized how angry I was becoming. They are all assuming they know why I cut or my old reason. 'It's a coping technique or an outlet for you,' they all say. It used to be...

But I've learned to cope by ignoring things.

And as I speak to friends I realize how much they really don't get it.

I cut because I enjoy it.

I know it's an addiction. But I cut when I'm happy or sad. I enjoy the feeling of tearing up my skin and I love to see the blood. I know there's something wrong with me but I'm okay with it. I don't think I could ever get past my seven days of not cutting. I don't need it, I want it. I don't space out and not realize I'm doing it. I know I am and I like it.

Can't believe I never just told anyone sooner.

[Weeping]

Ugh.. I know that feeling.. Everybody is just.. Ugh.. But they really have NO idea.

:hug:

[allsoulsareblack]

yer i enjoy it to but after almost 3 years of it im trying to stop to many scars and i can start going out properly soon so fresh scars wont be good but i reli do enjoy it particuly on a reli stressfull day

[Magenta]

But my day doesn't have to be stressful. I just... Do it because I want to.

Edit: Cutting now and I'm not even bothered. Just want my dad to go away so I can finish. I shouldn't be. I know I shouldn't but I am.

[Bath]

I cut for many reasons, one being the one you just brought up. You enjoy it. Having a terrible day (which happens a lot to me recently,) and I'll just go upstairs, hold the razor, calm down and tear at my legs.

everyone else says "don't"... but they don't know. :/
and all of this is the problem. we "should" stop, it's a common moral, but we don't WANT to. that's the addiction.

[XxHaViiK]

I used to cut, but not anymore. It's a really touchy topic around here, and taken sometimes too seriously in my opinion, so I stopped.

At first, I cut as an outlet. It made emotional pain stop. I could quit crying. I could quit being pissed at everyone. I started attending therapy, and got treatment for Single Episode Depression, and moderate PTSD, mainly effected by very specific triggers. It took a while to stop cutting. I was happy, but very addicted to cutting. Honestly, I still consider myself addicted, because I think about doing it at least two or three times a week. Thankfully I can keep myself from doing it.

[Mike321]

I sort of know waht you mean, I used to cut as a way of dealing and coping with things at first.
But now, like you said, you do it becuase you enjoy it, I did it last night for no reason that I can think of really.
I dont know, its hard when people say you should or tell you not to do it, they dont understand how strong the addiction can be I guess

[Ambrosia]

Yeah. Cutting can be for many reasons all at once. After a long time of cutting you can often times end up at a point where you do it just because you like it. That's where the addiction thing comes in full force and you realize you're cutting just because you were bored. I've cut before because I was in a happy mood and i just felt the need to. It's a sucky thing.

[singeramber]

I feel in the exact same way... x

[Stay]

I'm not going to go into the health risks of cutting, you already know them.
If you like it, keep doing it. That's what I say.

[Love.Hate]

I enjoy the feeling of tearing up my skin.

I don't think I could ever get past my seven days of not cutting

I know this feeling all too well :/

Well 7 days is good, and if im honest i dont think anyone will ever understand fully if they havent been a self harmer in the past.
Its just the way the world works.

Its good that you realise there is something not right with enjoying that feeling. But its an addiction.
x

[Charleigh]

I cope by cutting unforchanatley.
I do it because, from a young age I got fed up of constant rejection and being pushed away by my mum. I got very confused and craved love and attention from someone. As I got older thing's started going wrong, so it changed to doing it because I felt like it was an escape. Now I do it because, I feel like it help's me figure out everything inside my head, it make's me feel a quick adrenaline as the blood is drawn, instead of rejection I feel like a knife or blade wont ever reject me so in a way I feel like that's my saviour. Im addicted. I cant stop lol. I go insane if I dont do it.

[Taithleach]

The reason for doing it is because I like seeing my skin splitting open and watching as the blood seeps...theln trickles down my leg, eventually my leg is covered in gashes and blood.... it doesn't hurt....its a thrill, amplified by the sadistic sounds of skin ticket by slipknot. I'm not an emotionally corrupt person, never had any trumatic experiences, just a normal well brought up polite person, even I'm surprised I'm capable of such a monstrosity.....I'm a freak desperately seeking help.