So

[MadManWithaBox]

I don't know if I should thank those of you who made me get help last night or not. Don't know if this is better than being dead. Less noise if I was dead.

[Love.Hate]

Anything is better than being dead. However bad it may seem its good your still here :)

[MadManWithaBox]

I disagree. I hate hospital wards.

[UnknownError]

Matt Fran's right. Anything is better than being dead. Anything at all.

[MadManWithaBox]

With the situation I'm in, I'm somehow doubting that.

[Fiction]

Matt, things can get better after this. This is giving you another chance at life.

[Magenta]

I'm glad you're still with us. :D I'd give you a big hug if I could just to prove it.

[MadManWithaBox]

As soon as they unrestraint me, I'm gone.

[Magenta]

Don't say that. I don't know your situation but I know you are stronger than you think. You were right to get help last night. That shows that some part of you really was not ready to leave this life yet. And even that tiny part can hold a lot of weight in your life. I believe in you, Matt, even though I'm a complete stranger.

[MadManWithaBox]

Well they clearly don't trust me. Otherwise I wouldn't be restrained, and they would let me go to group. So I'l never get out of here, so what's the point.

[Magenta]

I think it's just a necessary precaution for now. You will get out eventually but just be patient. I know, it's a lot to ask. You're allowed to hate me for saying it. But I'm here to support you through this, as are many others. It will be worth it. Whatever it is you're going through, I read on your other thread that you beat it before. You can do it again.

[MadManWithaBox]

No they won't, they'll transfer back to the psych hospital down the road. I'l be here forever.

[Magenta]

I believe a lot in energy and the power of thinking. The more thoughts you think like that, the more negative energy you send out to the world. You're unconsciously affecting your own outcome that way... And not in a positive light.

I know it seems silly and you can't change your thinking. But sometimes it helps to make an effort to really realize how you're thinking. Something to consider maybe? Or you can just say I'm nuts and that's okay too. :D

[MadManWithaBox]

I've tired to be positive before. And it always ends up shit. Not worth trying anymore

[Magenta]

Was it because in the back of your mind you were telling yourself all those positive thoughts were useless? Were you changing the energy before it had a chance to work? You never know. It is always worth another try. But I can't force you, just encourage.

[MadManWithaBox]

He doesn't let me think like that. He said I don't deserve to.

[singeramber]

Matt you helped me last year when I needed it.. reading you post over the last couple of days I really want to help you!